being sick really sucks
Saturday, February 22, 2014
Still sick...and it's getting worse now. It's gone from just my sinuses to my lungs. Achey and sore all over. But even feeling like complete garbage I managed to do not just one hour, but an hour and a half on the treadmill!!! I figured I'd try to sweat this damned thing out of me (excuse my language please). It was my best workout ever!!! I have never been able to do 4mph for more than 5 minutes in an entire workout session...but today I did 15 minutes at 4 mph!!! Granted it was 5 min at 4mph, 5 min at 3 mph, and so on and so forth. I actually felt a little better after I got off the treadmill...but I don't know if that was just the endorphins, or what. Because now I feel soooooooo much worse!!!
But I feel guilty for not working out! And Monday is my weigh-in and last week I actually GAINED weight!!! Not only that, but I surpassed my previous all-time-high-weight!!! Maybe that's what's been fueling me to workout even when I really want to just snuggle up in bed and never come out! I have this intense fear that I won't be able to hit my goal weight!! I know that's counter-productive, but I don't know how to let go of the fear!!
Okay...the DH just brought me some dinner and since I have had little to no appetite, I guess I should at least try. Especially since I haven't eaten since breakfast.
Okay...signing off! G'night all!