Saturday, February 22, 2014
Still sick...and it's getting worse now. It's gone from just my sinuses to my lungs. Achey and sore all over. But even feeling like complete garbage I managed to do not just one hour, but an hour and a half on the treadmill!!! I figured I'd try to sweat this damned thing out of me (excuse my language please). It was my best workout ever!!! I have never been able to do 4mph for more than 5 minutes in an entire workout session...but today I did 15 minutes at 4 mph!!! Granted it was 5 min at 4mph, 5 min at 3 mph, and so on and so forth. I actually felt a little better after I got off the treadmill...but I don't know if that was just the endorphins, or what. Because now I feel soooooooo much worse!!!
But I feel guilty for not working out! And Monday is my weigh-in and last week I actually GAINED weight!!! Not only that, but I surpassed my previous all-time-high-weight!!! Maybe that's what's been fueling me to workout even when I really want to just snuggle up in bed and never come out! I have this intense fear that I won't be able to hit my goal weight!! I know that's counter-productive, but I don't know how to let go of the fear!!
Okay...the DH just brought me some dinner and since I have had little to no appetite, I guess I should at least try. Especially since I haven't eaten since breakfast.
Okay...signing off! G'night all!