And here we go again.
Saturday, February 22, 2014
This is my Nth time restarting my goals on SP - not because of SP, but because of my inability to maintain it for long. I'm trying things differently this time in hopes that a different approach will work. So here it is: I weigh 235 pounds. I wear a size 18/20. Both of my maternal grandparents have Type 2 diabetes, and that scares me. I struggle with depression. And I've had enough. I learned how to curl this year and joined a league. It's been amazing. I love the sport and I feel like I'm progressing in it. It offers me two hours of activity every week, but that's not enough. I want to be a better curler. I want to be happy and healthier.
I joined a gym last year and haven't gone. Not. Once. I've wasted all that money out of laziness. It makes me a little sick to think about what that money could have gone to. I'm tired of throwing money away at half-hearted attempts to lose weight. I turn 30 in July and I don't want to spend another decade living this way. I spent my twenties pursuing failed career goals and now that I'm entering another decade soon, I'm ready for major changes. I work for Dick's Sporting Goods and I want to make this company my career. I'm good at retail, and I love this company, and I want to move up the chain. But I don't think I can be taken seriously as a manager in a store geared towards active, fit, and athletic customers if I am none of those things. So I need to get my ass in gear for personal and career reasons.
I'm also hoping that in eating better, getting more sleep, and being active, I can alleviate some of the symptoms of depression that I experience. (Help me, endorphins, you're my only hope!) I want better self-esteem. I want to like what I see in the mirror. And it's not my size that I don't like - it's that I want to change it and I don't make the effort. So now when I look in the mirror, I see someone who is lazy and can't be bothered to follow through on the things I want to do/have. And that needs to stop.
Weight goals for the next 12 months:
Weight - 185
Pant Size - 12
Activity goals for the next 12 months:
Improved cardio tolerance (read: I want to stop being winded when curling)
Eat out no more than once per week
Eat more fruits, veggies, whole grains
Cut my caffeine dependence (1 cup of coffee per day)
Cut the meat intake (for health and financial reasons)
Enjoy the outdoors more
Enjoy life more
Cut my risk of Type 2 Diabetes
I know I can do this. I hope I can stay motivated.