Friday, February 21, 2014
Luckily my overall mood has gotten much better over the past 2-3 days, so I could stick to my goals - kind of. I ALWAYS overeat! Just a little bit, I probably still end up with a calorie deficit for the day, but it's still so stupid of me that I can't control myself.
BUT I don't want to beat myself up about it as long as I end up with a deficit. I don't want to pull myself down and be negative. I'm trying to stay positive and so far it's working well.
But speaking of negative, I have problems with my knees and I worry about that a little bit. I remember about 2,5 years ago I went to my doctor (a very skinny 65-year-old woman who cares very much about her looks and wants desperately to stay young and diets all the time - I know that from her daughter, not herself - and probably looks down on me for having weight problems and not being able to lose weight in my twenties) and she said I should lose weight first and then we'll do tests and an X-ray (you should've seen her face when she said "lose weight first")...
Then when I moved here to the UK I went to a doctor again to look at my knee problem, and first they sent me to physiotheraphy (without doing any tests), then the phisyotherapist said that there's nothing that they can do but they sent BACK a letter to my family doctor with the message that i should be sent to rheumatology. I went to my family doctor to see when they can give me an appointment for rheumatology (I thought that finally the right doctor - a rheumatologist - will see me) and my family doctor said the waiting time can be up to 6 MONTHS!!! This was 2 months ago, obviously no one called me back yet, and I'm moving back to Hungary in a little over a month...
The things is my knees only hurt when I force them but when i say "force" I don't mean some horrible gruesome torture and exercises, I only mean things like a FEW squats and lunges during exercise, or longer walks, or generally being on my feet during most of the day instead of sitting.
For example yesterday yesterday I went for a 3-hour walk. Only a tiny bit of downhill and uphill, maybe 10 minutes total, the rest was plain roads. And after that walk one of my knees started hurting!!! Just a walk!!!! I'm 27 years old!!!!
So I decided that once I move back home to Hungary I'll go and pay a private doctor, I don't care how much it costs!!!