Friday, February 21, 2014
When I was still working, I was always the one the most stressed out. Others would go to the lunchroom and chat and have a relaxing lunch while I ate at my desk, and worked through lunch. They would go for a walk at lunch or after work--or even go for a run! But I started the afternoon stressed out and it got worse as class after class entered my classroom. I was "Mrs. Upset", instead of Mrs. Upton!
I noticed how my co-workers got stress away from themselves.
Boy, some of them were whizzes at this! And they looked bright and happy and efficient!
I looked harried and 'behind' and stressed, like I could not handle my job. I thought, "Something is wrong here!"
I started using their tricks! Over the years I became less stressed and enjoyed my job and my students much more!
Now, I am retired but have the responsibilities of a caregiver. I take lots of time for myself. I still get stressed and feel lonely and overburdened sometimes. But my mentality has totally changed from years ago.
I do need to work on those bottled up feelings of stress later in the day. I still tend to work through the earlier hours in the day and feel tired and lonely in the late afternoons and evenings.
I still have a ways to go. And you folks at SP are helping me a great deal.
I still need help planning nice events to go to. I tend to hole up in the house. If I plan an event for the evening, often I am tired and have a hard time prying myself from home. I am still a work in progress!!
I am still learning to convince myself I deserve a happy life !