Friday, February 21, 2014
Yesterday I went on a mini fieldtrip. It was unplanned but it was fun none the less. There was someone taking pictures. They caught me in one. I have to say, I was VERY disappointed! I had no idea I had gotten so big again. I feel huge and now I know I look it too. I love that my husband says Im hot and beautiful and all that jazz. I need that like most women do. However...I am saddened that he is so blinded by love that he wont be honest with me. I love him and don't want him to stop so I will always say thank you. But I feel ugly again. I didn't even recognize that it was me in that picture...I couldn't believe it. It doesn't matter what the scale says because I know what I weigh vs what I look like. I know other women who weigh more and look thinner. Muscle far outweighs fat. I am fat! I feel fat! I am glad that I have started exercising again...I pray that I start to feel better and that my body aches less. Jumping around at 113 pounds feels a HECK of a lot better than sluggishly moving around at a kiss from 150!!!