Friday, February 21, 2014
In my food habits, that is.
I've barely eaten over the past 2 weeks. Like nothing at all. Today, I'm feeing it. I want carbs and fat, really bad. All I've eaten are fruits and veggies. That's it. Seriously. Oh, and a slice or two of turkey bacon with lunch. That, plus tahini is my only source of protein right now. Like I said, I'm feeling it.
My normal day - wake up, go to the gym, eat lunch (some sort of veggie with turkey bacon. Ie, green beans with tomatoes and turkey bacon in a spicy white wine sauce, brussels sprouts with turkey bacon in a citrusy vinegar sauce, or broccoli with roasted red peppers in a garlicy, spicy white wine sauce. Snack at work is an apple. Dinner is a clementine, a carrot, and some snap peas. MAYBE something afterwards. And that's it. Seriously. Yesterday, I added some grilled zucchini with a spicy tahini sauce. Today, I added kale chips. I just attempted to make an apple brownie thingy, it worked. It didn't fulfill the craving. I'm still hungry.
I know I should eat more. I need protein, like really bad. I know I'm craving it. And the carbs. I'm lacking both of those in my diet over the past two weeks. Peanuts sound DELICIOUS right now. Maybe I'll buy some this weekend. I'm just so scared to. It's a major source of calories.
I've got to stop focusing on calories though. I don't NEED to lose more weight. I just need to lose fat. Yes, my body fat % is dropping, about 2% every 6 weeks or so. I'm happy with that. I'm not happy with what I see in the mirror, however.
I just don't understand. I'm a size 6, I'm a healthy BMI, I weigh around 135. I should be happy. My stomach, however, doesn't look happy. My thighs? Way too big. I don't get it.
I want food. I'm afraid to eat it. I don't need to be, but I am. Ugh. I hate this.