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I’ve Fallen and I CAN Get Up!

Thursday, February 20, 2014

OK – here I am, brushing off my wounded ego…

It has taken quite a while, but I am back – and this time, it feels a bit different. Everything has gotten back to square one – gained back the weight, stopped working out, injured body parts, using excuses, blah blah… So what has changed? I think I have. I am not ‘gung-ho’ this time…not filled with new excitement and new motivation. Not a whoo hoo, yipppeeee nor a hurray in me. Just a calm realization that today is going to be the best shape my health and body are ever going to be unless I make some changes and make them consistently and make them now.

I am not going to tell anyone I am on another eating program, health kick or exercise routine. (except my Spark family, of course). I am going to make teeennnnnnnny changes.

I ‘got’ that had I stayed with ‘it’, by now I would be energized, healthy and able to wear anything I want (including sleeveless!). So, no huge announcements, no impossible promises or zillions of items on a to-do list. No going crazy beating myself up every time I don’t do it perfectly. No due dates. None of that.

I am going to be gentle, take baby steps, do the best I can, watch what I eat without making drastic changes I can’t stick with. I will record the minor adjustments I make and how I feel. I will keep my improvements ‘close to the chest’, as it were. I will check my Spark information – but no specific schedule on which days I will do so. I will not do anything that will make me feel bad about not doing something...ya know?

So this time, there will be no marching bands, no fireworks, nothing ‘loud’ – no one will know about my getting healthy. This time I will let my body speak for itself, let the world see my results without me telling them about it. If someone tells me I look thinner, I will not go into a lecture on how I did it. I will just smile and say ‘thank you’. I will see this weight loss journey as something precious and will only share about it when I reach my goal – which will be the first time in years. Then, get ready – ‘cause the band will be amazing, the fireworks awe inspiring the Whoo Hoos and Yipppeeesss nice and loud.

But for now, I will take it slow and quietly take it one step at a time.

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    You sound like you have finally decided not to diet but to make a life change. That is the best one because it works. Good for you getting up and dusting yourself off. No one person or business went from the bottom to the top in one direction...non stop up. Check any chart and you will see some ups and some downs. As long as ultimately the ups are more than the downs. Keep at it, you will succeed, this is just a bump in the road.
    1492 days ago
  • MARYANN2323
    You sound like you know what you want, and how to get it. Being realistic is the #1 thing most people seem to overlook. Slow & steady ALWAYS wins the race. Your pace, your way.

    I've always avoided telling people in my "real" world about any weight loss plans. They wouldn't understand anyways. And if, and when, I screw up, I don't have to listen to them drone on. My SP friends get it, and that's good enough for me.
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    1492 days ago
  • F70176555
    Oh how I can relate to your blog!!! I started because I had some health issues. I didn't really want to slack off on my eating but it was a must. Now I feel very motivated to go all the way and like you I am not proclaiming to the roof tops to everyone I know. But some have made comments and I told them the reason why I have started eating healthy now. More so for my health than looks. Don't get me wrong I can't wait to look better!

    You can do this! I wish you success and we can make it to goal! emoticon
    1493 days ago
    Hope you don't mind I added you as I friend. I am EXACTLY where you are right now. I'm starting over after gaining some weight back and I'm *just* doing it this time. I don't want the attention. I don't want all the "I'm super motivated!!" "THIS time I'm gonna do it right!!" stuff. Sometimes all the "You GO girl!" and these things : emoticon can get annoying and tend to ring false after a while. I'm not saying people don't mean well or trying to be negative, it's just not what everyone needs. Sometimes you fail at this and you want to be realistic about it. That said, emoticon :)
    1493 days ago
  • LUANN7
    your goal is great and u can do it-keep up the good work
    1493 days ago
  • RHOOK20047
    Make sure you make attainable goals. Don't set your goals so high that you are doomed to fail. Small attained goals lead to big goals met!
    1493 days ago
  • CROSE24
    I totally relate to your post. I've sort of taken on that attitude myself. I also think that not telling people can help to ease the pressure. It's like if you tell someone your on a diet, you feel like they are watching your every move and judging how you look everytime they see you. I think doing it privately, and slowly, is the best and most effective way! Good luck to you!
    1493 days ago
    Doing it for you! You go! emoticon
    1493 days ago
    I think that is great............ emoticon emoticon emoticon Just gog at your own pace and what makes you feel good.
    1493 days ago
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