Thursday, February 20, 2014
I just read the incredibly motivational success story posted by Gemladyone. I can't believe how inspiring that was! The main thing that really resonated for me was the fact that she made tracking completely non-negotiable. In her own mind, she decided that it was something she HAD to do, every single day, and stuck with it for the entire year of 2013. Amazing! I have been trying and trying for years to make something stick for me like that.
But maybe the key word there is "trying." I haven't really decided within myself that it's something I HAVE to do no matter what, and so I slip and slide all over the place when it comes to following my plan and reaching my goals. And when I decide that it's not worth the time or energy to track, then ultimately what I'm doing is avoiding being honest with myself about my food intake or my activity level.
I'm really REALLY good at lying to myself!!
I don't want to be good at that anymore. This year I want to learn how to be good at telling myself the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. If telling myself the truth means taking the time out of my day to track my food intake even if I binged the whole day, then that's what I'm going to do. Telling the truth also means being realistic about this whole thing. If I mess up so terribly that I feel awful about myself, telling the truth means looking at the experience as something I can learn from and not the end of the world. It means seeing myself with loving and caring eyes, and accepting myself no matter what.
It also means choosing the healthy way to do this. In the past I've had times where I've thought about weight loss in such an all-or-nothing way that I would do crazy things like skip breakfast and lunch or eat only rice cakes and sugar-free jello. Those crazy things only lead to bingeing and self-loathing! Telling the truth means treating my body and mind with respect.
Maybe I should say that again.
Telling the truth means treating my body and mind with respect.
And that's really what it's all about.