Wednesday, February 19, 2014
I actually gained a little back, but I've lost waistline and hip line and all of those other measurements, so I'm guessing that 1.5 pounds is a mixture of muscle and water weight that will most likely balance out next weigh in. I was upset with myself, but I kept pushing forward.
Then what happens? Today someone noticed that there's a little less of me. Someone who didn't know I was trying to change my lifestyle. ( I keep my support circle quite small) I think it helps to have a few people to lean on and keep the rest of the people in the dark. My clothes are fitting just a smidge looser, not noticeable to everyone, but I notice and I'm glad.
I didn't think it would be noticeable to anyone yet, but it was and it came on a day I needed it. A day where life's personal struggles are weighing me down and it's harder to find the happy. I have a co-worker and friend who seems to be losing his battle with cancer and my heart was so broken, but today someone noticed my jeans are a little loose and the sun came out and I am holding onto those two small little moments to keep my heart from shattering. It's been a long hard winter and seeing the sun and taking that quick walk around the court yard brought me a stolen moment of joy and for that I'm thankful. Now to keep hoping that his new treatment will help him when it starts in a couple weeks, right now they're just hoping he "holds on until the study starts" Pray for my friend and remember to find your own stolen joyful moments to hold onto.