Losses and Gains
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
That's why we're all here, right? Weight loss, getting healthy, learning to love ourselves regardless of the numbers.....
I've been going through a lot of that the past two years or so years.
First it started with a goal in October of 2011: If I lost 30 pounds, I would reward myself with a new DSLR camera. My BMI was 40, which is the start of what is considered morbid obesity. I knew I was overweight.... but morbidly obese. That just sounds... Bad.
So by spring of 2012 - Mission Accomplished. Yay!
New BMI: 35. Not great, but a lot better than 40!
I did pretty good at maintaining that weight loss. I was exercising regularly. I ate pretty healthy, but didn't track or watch portion sizes. I knew I was still a long way from an ideal weight. But I was active, I was happy with having dropped some pounds, the status quo was a okay in my mind.
In February of 2013, I began having some issues with my throat. Without going into a ton of details, I've lost a lot of weight as a part of this on going - and still un-diagnosed issue.
While I would have much, much rather have the pounds gone due to something other than illness, I'm trying to see the bright side. Current BMI: 22.5. The weight is gone and I need to do my best to keep it off.
I've been shuffled from specialist to specialist trying to figure out the cause of my throat problems. Some weeks I can breath great and get in a bunch of cardio and strength training. Other weeks it's all I can do to get through a few yoga classes.
It's been a challenge not to get frustrated - with the doctors, with myself, with life....
It's teaching me patience - with myself, with others, with life in general. There are a million "what-ifs" we can come up with in our lives. Worrying about them won't change them. All we can do is make the best choices for what is happening in the present. Stay positive, enjoy the small things.