Wednesday, February 19, 2014
So today is a sort of significant day. Today marks fourteen years since my cousin Robby passed away. He was only 18 when he died in a car accident, and I was only 14 at the time. Growing up, he was as close as a sibling and, due to familial circumstances, he was closer to me than my own half brother. That day fourteen years ago will be forever etched into my memory as the saddest day of my life thus far.
Speaking of Robby, I have a memory of him that I think of often when I'm working hard to lose weight. I will never forget him telling me that skinny kids grow up to be fat adults. I was a skinny kid up until my teens. The thinnest of my sisters and I. I didn't really think of his statement as terribly mean, and it was quickly forgotten about until years later. Looking back on it now, I think maybe he was trying to make himself feel better, as he was not as thin as I was at that point in time. Or maybe he was just teasing me. Regardless, once I arrived in adulthood with extra junk in the trunk, his words came back to me. Ever since, I have been telling myself that I will prove to him that I can be a thin adult. That has been a driving force in my weight loss journey.
So anyway, today I was struggling a little with exercise. I am the kind of person that gets bored pretty quickly when I do the same thing day in, day out. So when I felt like getting my exercise in in the morning, I wasn't looking forward to another round of Just Dance. I like the game, but it can get monotonous. So I tried some Wii Tennis instead. It was great! It gave me the change up that I was looking for. However, my arm has been sore ever since!
So after having a pretty successful day with both diet and exercise (woohoo!), I decided to look into other indoor activities that don't require equipment, videos, or a gym membership. During that searching I remembered the Couch to 5K program I have heard about many times over the past few years. So I looked at the details. Now, I'm not a runner. At all. Even after being told since I was very young that I had good “running legs.” Its just not something that I typically enjoy. However, now that I'm growing bored with my current routine, and since its not quite warm enough to get outside and do activities that I do enjoy, I decided I want to give the program a try. I'm thinking that if I have a set goal, that it will give me the motivation to stick to the program for the longer term. Well, at least until its warm enough to spend more than five minutes outside. Walking and running can be done anywhere pretty much, even in place, which is what my plan is for now.
So tonight after dinner I tried day one of the program. And you know what? I CAN do it! My legs were a little wobbly after I was done, but I finished it!
After being obsessed with the scale lately, and not seeing it really move in the past week or so, I took an honest look at my eating habits. I've come to the conclusion that I was having a little bite of this and a little bite of that a couple of times each day and not tracking it. This has been happening for about a week or so. Well it stopped now. Today I tracked every single bite that I took. I have decided that from now on, I will give myself a little indulgence at the end of the day ONLY if I stick to tracking everything and eating healthy the rest of the day. So tonight I had a Hostess cupcake. Do you know that that darn cupcake tasted even better tonight, after making myself stick to the program, than it did the other day when I had one “just because?” Who knew working for that special treat could make it taste even better?! I will definitely be continuing this! I used to do this exact thing before, when I had lost 60 pounds, so I know it will work well for me. I just don't remember the part where the treat tasted better after working for it! Lol
So now I've got my plan figured out, new goals set, and new incentives. I think I'm ready to go! Hopefully the scale will start moving again too.