Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Its been too long since I've written. I have no good excuse really.
By the end of January, I was hitting a wall emotionally. I don't know what triggered it exactly, but I know that it put me into a two week long funk. I was falling into a blackhole. I was struggling to hold onto....something. What, I don't know.
I was spending far too much time on the computer and internet. Like all day. That darn internet is a big fat time suck. You log on just to “check one thing” and the next thing you know, its five hours later and you haven't even checked on that one thing yet.
I didn't fall off the wagon completely with my weight loss, but there were a lot of days where I was holding on by just a finger or two. I slacked on my exercise way too much. My eating wasn't horrible, but it wasn't great.
Then this past Friday I had woken up still feeling the storm rolling around in my head. Come about midday though, something changed. I don't know what, but I was able to see some of the light. The storm was lifting, the clouds were breaking. I decided I spend far too much time on the internet and computer and decided that I needed to put it down for the rest of the day.
I did pretty well too. I opened up my laptop just last night for the first time since Friday. I'm happy to say that I got a lot done. I worked on some projects, spent time with the kids. I exercised with the kids! We also went for a family outing yesterday.
The family outing was great. We went out to Red Robin for lunch. I swore to myself on the way there that I would pick whatever burger I wanted, but only eat half of it and half of my fries. Well....my resolve gave away when I devoured the last bite of the half I had cut for myself. That “Burnin' Love'' was delicious, and I ate my previous words with the second half of my burger. I also finished my fries. But you know what? I haven't really been beating myself up about it. No, instead, I just came home, put it into my tracker, and dealt with it. Since I had surpassed my calorie limit for the day by the end of that delicious, juicy burger, I just adapted my dinner to have the least impact possible without depriving myself. I refuse to go hungry if I overindulge, so instead I just had a smaller meal, of which half was veggies. And you know what? The scale still showed a loss this morning! I survived a bump in the road without beating myself up about it so much that I sabotaged the rest of the day. I can do this!
We also walked the mall yesterday. We spent about an hour and a half just walking. And I still came home and did some Just Dance.
Matt says he's going to join me in my journey to the healthier me. He hasn't shown it yet, ha ha, but he keeps saying he will. It will be great if he does though, because then we can start to do activities as a family. We will both be setting a good example for the kids then.
We're gearing up now for another snow storm this week. I love the snow. Always have, always will, but this winter has had a lot of snow compared to the last ten-ish years. I would love for this storm to be a big one, blizzard level or so, and then have spring roll in. I am looking forward to spending time outside. I am dying to swim! I also can't wait to plant the garden. I love watching things grow. I'm already starting to plan what to plant this year. I also look forward to family walks. I told Matt that come warmer weather, we will all be going out for a walk every day that we can. That sounds great to me.
Ahh....spring. I'll gladly enjoy the snow though, while you take your time getting here.