Well, its been a bit since I've blogged again, so I figure its about time for an update....not that there's much to actually update.
My Valentine's Day was good- DW and I grilled a couple steaks, an onion, and zucchini and squash, and also had baked potatoes. Then we played some games- so it was low key, but good.
I'm still struggling to just get back on the wagon. I feel like I've been just eating constantly at night lately... I try to just have one dove chocolate square to kind of take care of my sweet tooth, but it turns into 3-4 chocolates, maybe some lemonade instead of more water, an extra piece of whatever is around, etc... I just need to tell myself "no, just drink some water". I've been feeling kinda bleh in the mornings because I'm eating crap foods, especially at night before I go to bed. I also need to get consistent with my Plexus. When I was drinking it regularly and on a daily basis I was doing really well- I wasn't craving sweets constantly, I wasn't hungry because it helped to curb my appetite so I wasn't wanting to eat so much between meals, etc. It was working- and I don't know why I stopped- I had a schedule and I stuck to it. The summer really didn't help- I was out of my normal routine and schedule and many times forgot to drink it, or forgot the mix at home if I was out and about. I was also working out consistently- it was working- I totally let go of things that were working for me...I don't even know why other than the fact that my schedule changed and I just didn't put in the effort to make it part of my new schedule. Same goes for this school year- I've been working so much that I haven't put out the effort that I need to- even if I've already had a 14 hour day and I'm tired....I need to get back into doing SOMETHING.
I'm going to be going down to Louisiana with DW at the end of June/beginning of July to meet his family (his parents and brothers and sister that I haven't met yet) and I would love to lose at lease SOME weight before then. I know I won't be anywhere near my goal weight, but I'd at least like to be moving in the right direction. I also have a wedding to go to in April, one in May, one at the beginning of June, and one in the middle of June, and the trip.... I just want to at least feel good about myself when it comes to accomplishing something when it relates to my weight loss goals.
I keep talking and writing and talking about needing to get back in gear but then I don't do it... Talk is cheap....and I need to stop talking and just start doing. I need to just map out a schedule of nights that I can just push through being exhausted and work out, then head over to DW's after I shower, since I sleep over there most nights. I could even shower over at his place- I know that wouldn't be a problem either. I have the resources, I have the ability, I just need to make myself apply all of that. I think one thing that helped last year was that my friend Meaghan and I would meet up at least a few days a week and work out together. With my current schedule, though, the times that I can work out are too late for her, and I'm tutoring when she's able to work out.
I don't know why its so hard for me to just go to the gym alone- the only two ideas that I have are that one- its more fun to have someone to go with and it helps the time go by faster, and two- I often times feel very self conscious when I go to the gym- especially when I go alone- and having someone there with me just helps me to not think about it as much, and puts my focus elsewhere.
I know that the combination of Plexus, working out, and tracking my calories closely works for me- I just need to keep the motivation and stay in the habit of following through with all of that. I can't let myself get lazy and fall behind like I have been. 2 years ago, I joined Spark and I'm basically in the same place I was 2 years ago...If I had just stuck with it and not been lazy, I could be at my goal or at least be close to it. I think that's what bothers me the most...I could be closer to where I wanted to be, but I gave up, stopped caring, and didn't stick with it.
I need to get my kiddos situated and get going for the day, but have a great week my lovely sparkies!
Until Next Time,