Monday, February 17, 2014
I tend to blog yesterday's happenings but want to catch up to feel even with ONEKIDSMOM and the Mentally Tough class I graduated with!
I grabbed the big girl panties and ran with them today, feeling back in control although soooo tired.
My thoughtful moments come with haunting blogs from some long term Spark friends.
We know each other in writing and have different feelings of connections to each. Just like friends in our "real" lives. We talked of visiting.
One day some of us received a message from a friend's spouse; he logged on to tell of her sudden passing.
It was a hmmm moment for me.
So what happens?
I have several friends who just disappeared. No goodbye, no I'm outa here. We knew each others deepest fears and triumphs.
Then there is my dear friend who I know has a short time left. Probably knew her diagnosis before she had it confirmed. I check in every day. It's been a while since she had the energy to write a blog.
So, what happens?
Do we continue on and hope someone lets us know? Pretend they are coming back?
When do I stop checking?
I enjoy cheering my friends on, helping out the problems, lending an ear or giving advice even when it is not solicited.
I guess I don't like the waiting, the not knowing, knowing the inevitable.
Do we go on like they will be back or let them drop from our pages like dried leaves from the fall trees?
We are so connected yet disconnected.