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Feeling Burned Out

Saturday, February 15, 2014

This is a fairly long vent, so if you don't get through it I understand.

I hate my job. I have an action plan to leave, but I am just not sure I can get through the next 3 months (have to make it until oldest is done with her course in May) let alone the next 6 at my current main income job. As most of you know, I work from home about 25 hours per week and hold a more than full-time job outside the home (45-50 hours a week). This has turned into a recipe for a very volatile home environment. In the past few weeks I have spent more time in tears because of being overwhelmed than I can remember in a very long time. I don't think I was this emotionally on edge even after Mom passed away last May.

I have a very supportive family, but they are receiving the brunt of my anger and frustration, and if I am honest they really don't deserve this. They are there for me no matter what, but I have felt like a complete failure as a wife and mother due to all the stress at main income job. I am working on my resume and will be sending it out to a few places soon to see if I can find something else before August 2014. Right now if I could find either a part-time job that had a higher hourly wage or a regular full-time job (ie. 35-40 hours a week not 45-50) that paid the same or slightly less to start would be fine. I am just tired of getting up every weekday morning dreading going to work. The person who has fought for me for the past 4 years at this job is leaving for a better job elsewhere and quite honestly with how much his mood has changed over the past week since he found out I am jealous. I was hoping it would be me leaving this place before him. I am extremely happy for him and wish him all the best. He has told me to use him as a reference while job hunting and I hope that we can remain friends after we no longer work together.

My hubby has been a saint even though he has been cried on so much in the last few days. I have said some very stupid things that I now regret. I am going to see my family doctor soon to discuss the possibility that part of my physical symptoms may actually be related to anxiety or depression (although I am not really sure I am depressed just extremely stressed).

If I could make over $2,500 per month doing my transcription job I would just stay home and do that, but I am simply not fast enough yet to make that a possibility.

I know that this is affecting my maintenance as well because I am once again eating sporadically and not necessarily the healthiest. My stomach has been in knots so often that I have not wanted to eat or eating causes me to feel nauseated. I will also be seeing my gastrointerologist at the end of the month and I will discuss the same issues with him that I do with my GP and see what answers he gives me. I am just tired of feeling like I am 92 instead of 42.

Thank you if you made it this far.
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MEDDYPEDDY 3/17/2014 1:02AM

    That is tough! As i came here after reading your status about going to a new job, I hope to read futher on that it has changed!

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 2/18/2014 5:06PM

    **HUGS** Wow! You have a lot going on. I sincerely hope two things. First that you can get some help from the doc's and find the joy and fun in life again. Second that you can either find a new job or a way to make this one less stressful/hateful. You handling a lot right now.

Venting here is a good option if you need to. Prolonged stress does strange things to our bodies. I hope you get relief soon!
**HUGS**

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TWEETYKC00 2/17/2014 6:28AM

    I hope that something good can happen for you, you deserve better than this.

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PRUPLEBEAR 2/16/2014 7:50PM

    I am sorry! I wish I could do more for ya! BUt my dorky friend all I can do is tell ya that I am thinking of ya! And any time you want to vent feel free!

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NETGYRL 2/16/2014 6:39PM

    My spouse was in the same situation (major job hate and anxiety/depression) Her doctor put her on a low dose of Celexa and its been a night and day change. I highly recommend you go see your doctor asap. Good luck to you!

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BEULAH45 2/15/2014 9:21PM

    So sorry for your situation. Venting here is a good way to relieve your stress without further stressing your family. Will pray for you.
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