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The Scale and Me

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Saturday, February 15, 2014




Today is day 6 of my current streak!

In 2012, I was at the highest weight of my life, and I was dying from obesity. I had no energy, I hurt all over, and the slightest exertion made my heart race and got me out of breath. I was not really living anymore. I was trapped in an unhealthy, out of shape body. I wanted to change, but I had such a huge amount of weight to lose that just thinking about it was daunting. But I knew I had to save myself, or else I was going to die before my time. So on March 1, 2012, I started my journey. I decided to focus on HEALTH, not WEIGHT. I weighed myself on my Wii Fit, and then I put it away. I didn't want to worry about numbers. I just wanted to do my best to make each day as healthy as I possibly could, and to focus on NSV's. (Non-scale victories.)



It wasn't easy, and there were many times that I thought "I can't do it." I wanted to give up, but I knew that I had to keep going. I told myself "Just give it two weeks." So I stuck with it, even when it was hard and uncomfortable and painful. I started counting my days in a row, and I was so proud of the streak I was building up. After two weeks, I began to notice that I was making progress. The workouts were still hard, but I was getting stronger. I could even feel some firmness beneath my belly fat. My clothes were getting looser. These NSV's helped me to keep going for another day, another week, another month. Seven months later, I finally weighed myself on the Wii Fit again. I'd lost 71 pounds! I was so proud of myself!

And then I put the Wii Fit away again. I kept eating right and working out, and I could tell I was losing a few more pounds, simply by how I looked in my clothes. But I didn't feel any temptation to weigh myself. Even when the plateau finally hit, I didn't want to weigh in. I knew the weight loss had stalled, but I was kind of okay with that. I still had plenty of NSV's to celebrate. Although my clothing size stayed the same, I could feel my body firming up and getting stronger. I had more energy for my daily life. My husbands arms could go all the way around me when we hugged. I could do better during my workouts. I had no more achy knees, and I didn't get out of breath from just walking to the kitchen. So I just kept doing my best to stay on track.



But the plateau lasted a long time, and finally it started to get to me. I started to have occasional binges that would last a day or two. Then I'd pick myself up and get back on track. But I could tell that these binges were leading to small weight gains. And then, over the holidays, I really started to struggle. Slowly, I started to gain more weight. In January, hubby was in the hospital for a week, and then home recovering for 3 weeks. I was completely off track during that time. I hardly ever worked out, and I was eating a LOT. My jeans got way too tight and I had to go out and buy a pair of elastic waist jeans, which to me was a huge failure. It was also a wake up call.

So last week, I got back on the scale again. I needed to know exactly how much damage I'd done. It was heartbreaking to see that I'd gained back 31 lbs, but it wasn't the end of the world. It actually re-strengthened my resolve. I gave myself a total fresh start. And so far, I have been staying on track, and I'm starting to feel so much better...even though I have to wear elastic waist jeans for now!



A few people have suggested to me that I might not have gained 31 lbs if I had been weighing myself, but I have to disagree. My mind was in such a place that not even daily weigh ins would have stopped the gain, and I know this from experience. You see, in 2006, I lost 86 lbs while going to a women's gym and getting weighed there once a month. Once I lost that weight, I was at my goal size, and I wanted to stay there. So I bought a scale, and started weighing myself once a week. Then I started weighing once a day...and then several times a day. And then slowly, I started to go off track. The weight began to come back on, in spite of those multiple weigh ins. I would weigh myself, see how much I'd gained, and then binge to comfort myself. I had lost 86 lbs, but within a year I'd gained back 100 pounds!



I ended up throwing the scale away, because those weigh ins were crushing me. In spite of weighing myself so often, I had still gained weight. I don't think I ever want to own a scale again. What works for me is just paying attention to how my clothes fit and how I feel. I'm not saying that this would work for everyone. I know that some people need the accountability of weighing in, and there is nothing wrong with that. I just know that I don't want to have to deal with a scale. I'm back on track, and I know that if I keep eating right and working out, the weight will start to come off...and eventually, if I don't give up, I will reach my goals!





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TERRIJ7 6/22/2014 12:04PM

    I'm trying to find the balance for myself. If I never weigh myself, I'm in trouble; however, weighing frequently isn't good either.

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GRAMPIAN 5/10/2014 11:45AM

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WHOVIAN3 3/6/2014 10:42PM

    I know what you are saying. I told myself last week I will weigh in once a week(every wed) well I can not help getting on the scale every day!! then the # changes so much in a day or so. I need to hide it! out of sight out of mind!

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SPARKFRAN514 2/27/2014 1:23AM

    You were the first one to tell me about how important the NSV are and that they are so much more important then the numbers on the scale. its not how fast we lose the weight what is important is what we learn along the way with the NSV we get along the way they are like little emoticon of knowledge . not sue how i missed leaving a note before now . I read you blog and used the information.It helped me on my journey this week when I hit my plateau. I was excited to fit into a size 16 jeans even thought they are elastic band kind the size was my NSV . have gone back and re read you blog and only found one sentence i disagree with

I know that if I keep eating right and working out, the weight will start to come off...and eventually, if I don't give up, I will reach my goals!
Because I know you won't give up look how far you have come. you are still here sparking along leading teams so others can enjoy those NSV too !
I joined your no scales in the house club. gave mine to the church rummage sale ! Thanks for the informative and truthful blog having us stop and think about journey .

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MRSRIGS1 2/26/2014 3:23PM

    Pixie,

I fully understand how you feel about the scale. In the past, I have done the same thing. I became obsessed with weighing myself and became discouraged if I'd gain and would binge myself into comfort. I'd rather use how my clothes fit as a measurement of progress. Going down in size lets me know I am making progress towards my goal. Besides, when we workout continuously we are building muscle. That will weigh more and appear as if we are not making progress when indeed we are toning up.

I've joined a team on SP and the ONLY thing I don't like is HAVING to weigh in EVERY week. It really bums me out when my scale doesn't move or moves in the wrong direction. I have to CONSTANTLY remind myself NOT to get discouraged because my progress shows in how I fit into my new clothes! emoticon

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HAT_WRIGHT 2/25/2014 10:25PM

    Hi Pixie!!!

So glad I read this today. I really like your streak idea goal, and also the NSV's. It's funny how sometimes that number won't budge, but your clothing size gets smaller. I too am coming off of 3 weeks of not tracking and stress. I knew it was coming so I focused on my water and my freggies, and said to hell with the rest of it.

I am jumping back on the wagon tomorrow.

Hugs,

Hatti
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MILLIE5522 2/25/2014 5:12PM

    Great blog! I try to not to let the scale get to me when I gain a couple of pounds from one day to the next but it is disheartening. Reading your blog reminded me that the REAL goal is to feel better...healthy in body and mind. Thank you for the reminder. emoticon

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123ELAINE456 2/22/2014 10:52PM

  Awesome Blog!!! Well Said. Congratulations on your streak. You Can Do It!!! WTG!!! Hope this finds you doing well. Been back in the hospital again. Wrote anther blog on my Spark Page. Please read it. God Bless. Take Care!!! Hugs!!!

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JUNESHOPE 2/21/2014 11:21PM

    emoticon I completely understand about the scale. Funny to come across your post, when I was just thinking about this today.
emoticon I weigh-in once a week, but if it' not what I expected, then it does cause me to binge for a day or 2, and then I get back on track.
emoticon So today I've decided to weigh-in once a month. So I'll weigh the last day of Feb, and then the last day of March, etc. There are always going to be good weeks & bad weeks but they normally average out to a pretty good month. So that's what I'm going to stick with.
emoticon I'm a size 2x-3x now, and I'm comfortable between a size 8-14. So that's honestly what I'm shooting for. Not really a # on the scale, but I still want to know how much I weigh.
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LEMON2012 2/20/2014 1:35PM

    So PROUD of you! Stay in touch! Great minds think alike. :) I officially declared to stay off the scale until vacation! I've increased my workouts by 30 min. and from 2 to 4 times a week. I've noticed a difference in my clothes....but anywho I'm on a mission to get healthy, I'm confident that the my body will catch up and the scale will reflect soon enough! Until then....the scale is an indication of how much my body weighs, but not my worth!!! And this engine will keep chugging! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HEATHER3477 2/20/2014 11:14AM

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CAROL3SAN 2/20/2014 7:36AM

    You are doing it Pixie. I believe we all are where we should be at this very moment. I also believe that we can only get better with time. emoticon

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LOVEMYBIRDIES 2/20/2014 2:18AM

    Thank you so much for sharing your struggle. I have had major binge issues last week and this week. My aunt died suddenly and stress at work increased exponentially. I gained back 2 pounds after working so hard to lose 13. I have been down and frustrated because of it. Reading about other people's struggles really helps me get my head right. I know it won't last forever and this is a lifestyle change, not a one time deal. I still have a lot of learning to do. Thanks for being so honest.

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PATTIEMCD 2/19/2014 11:48PM

    I use to weigh myself every morning. Then this year I've averaged stepping on it once/week. Even though I haven't lost any weight in awhile, I'm just really glad I haven't gained back any of the weight I've lost since last year.

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HAPPYMENOW58 2/19/2014 2:12PM

    Great blog! Congrats on your streak!

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FITTEREVERYDAY 2/19/2014 1:25PM

    I love the quote on patience. I'm a slow loser (I'm trying for sustainable weight loss and then sustainable maintenance) and it can be trying to see people lose faster than my usual half pound a week average but I know I'm better off doing it my way because I'm not doing anything I couldn't carry on doing the rest of my life.

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HIMFAN8907 2/18/2014 11:50PM

  Just believe in yourself and you will reach those goals. I myself have been struggling with self esteem issues for years now. I'm 24 years old and I'm finally getting to the point of "I really need to fix this. Stop procrastinating and get to it. No one is going to do it for you." And with that, my wife and I joined a gym a few days ago and I went hard at it the first two days. Today, the third day, I've had to force myself to recover because I had spent 8 hours at the gym in two days. I am sore, beaten up, and exhausted.

So, with that, I wish you, and all the rest of you, the best of luck in your goals and I hope we all maintain them once we hit the ultimate goal. Good luck all.

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JOEYINMYHEART 2/18/2014 8:47PM

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great job im a scale watcher lol emoticon

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JOEYINMYHEART 2/18/2014 8:45PM

    hi you did a great job. I have a problem with scale I weigh myself everyday and if igo up I get disgusted so I eat something lol. I have to weigh myself though or ill quit I have done it before but u did a great job emoticon

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SHKIRK 2/18/2014 4:56PM

  YOU ARE SO RIGHT !! We all have to find what works for us and stick to that. No matter how someone else think we SHOULD do it.

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BEWELLMOM3 2/18/2014 3:55PM

    I recently figured this out for myself and for the first time in a very long time am actually losing weight. Not the huge amounts I'd love, but a steady, healthy decrease - in a manner I can live with for the rest of my life. FINALLY. Not only am I losing, I'm not miserable, either! I used to judge myself on whether or not the scale moved down when I stepped on it first thing every morning. Nothing like starting your day with a dose of "you haven't lost any weight, you are fat, you are not working hard enough,..... why bother?"

Now I only step on it once every week or two. And as long as it doesn't go up, I'm fine - because now I spend my time being proud about my actions and choices towards health. Every glass of water is "good for you!" Every walk or workout is more proof that I AM doing my best.

I'm thrilled to see that this approached has worked for someone. Good for you! emoticon Thank you for sharing this.


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ANDI1984 2/18/2014 2:59PM

    I just wanted to say thank you for posting this. I have always put more into the silly number than into NSV's. You have been a great inspiration for me and I will try my best to mark down my NSV's instead of worrying about numbers :)

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SAMMI-SAM 2/18/2014 2:46PM

    emoticon let's get moving!

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YAFENELRA 2/18/2014 1:52PM

    Pixie, I agree that getting on the scales regularly does not keep the pounds from coming back. For years (at least 16 years) I have faithfully gotten on the scales once a week and recorded it in a notebook, which I still have. It is sad to admit that those notebooks show me losing up to 80 pounds several times and then watching myself gain the pounds back. How stupid is that?? This time I caught myself before it all came back and I am hoping I have learned my lesson.

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KIM22211 2/18/2014 1:46PM

    good for you. So you are back now!!

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RILEYBOT 2/18/2014 11:41AM

    What a great blog! thanks. emoticon

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RILEYBOT 2/18/2014 11:40AM

    What a great blog! thanks. emoticon

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CASS6631 2/18/2014 11:02AM

  I agree that you make yourself happy and proud to lose the weight . give your self some goals like getting new clothes, give yourself so much money every time you lose weight and can keep It off for a certain amount of time etc. don't give up I have lost 17 lbs. since I started last July so I'm happy for where I'm right now. and continue to keep on going on.

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LEESA-B 2/18/2014 9:28AM

  Great job!

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IRISHGAL46 2/18/2014 9:17AM

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QUEENIEDMI 2/18/2014 7:53AM

    Thanks for sharing your very inspirational story! I love the fact that you didn't give up! emoticon

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IMEMINE1 2/18/2014 6:56AM

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I weigh myself every morning when I get up. I record it on my calendar, (the one I put happy stickers on after my exercise). It keeps me in line and I don't stress out when I am up or down a pound or 2 because I know it varies with how late I ate or whatever else might have happened.
I did start to worry when I crept up to 5 pounds pounds. (because I didn't exercise for awhile)
Now I am back on track. I am happy you are, too. emoticon

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2TIGRE 2/18/2014 12:20AM

    "What works for me is just paying attention to how my clothes fit and how I feel. "

AMEN!!!

I couldn't agree with you more! Like you, I know that some people love their scales - more power to them. I however like the practice of using my new smaller sized clothes as my gauge. I have been maintaining the same 5lb weight range for the past year and I've only stepped on the scale three times.

Can all of us manage our programs this way? Probably not but hopefully by talking and blogging about the importance and benefits NSV's more of us will be willing to give up the whole "scale mentality". JMHO

Keep up the good work! You're doing great. :)

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DIANER2014 2/17/2014 11:59PM

    Great blog Pixie! You are such a resilient lady, and I truly admire you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GWINNER1 2/17/2014 11:23PM

    i think we've all been there at one time or another. Glad you're back on track. Never give up. Just emoticon

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BUCS1221 2/17/2014 10:18PM

    I enjoyed reading your Blog and I am happy that you are getting back on the track again. I found out with in a month now it is all about our will power and our effort to make our goals we make for our selves. Hang in there. I would like to be your spark friend . Take care friend,
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ROXYCARIN 2/17/2014 8:33PM

  Well said!

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LILSPARKIE85 2/17/2014 8:13PM

    Good for you for getting back on track!

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AJB121299 2/17/2014 7:20PM

    nice

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PRESBESS 2/17/2014 7:15PM

    Woo-Hoo for the NSV's! Keep making it happen!


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