As mentioned in my earlier blog, my 25th High School Class Reunion is coming up. If that isn't enough, I went to a SMALL high school (Graduating class had 43, I think) so everyone knew everyone. There really wasn't any way to keep to yourself. And I wasn't the type of person who wanted to do that anyway.
I've struggled with my weight CONSTANTLY over the years, probably since 4th grade. That's when all those "seconds" at lunch began to catch up with me BIG TIME! I was 120 in Jr. High and it went up from there. I played tennis in high school, but otherwise was pretty sedentary. I don't know exactly what I weighed my Senior year. My Senior pictures were really good, but I think the photographer was just an expert at making my fat face look thin. When I saw the photos of me on my graduation night, I looked AWFUL!
In college, I began eating cafeteria food and getting a lot more exercise while walking to class and training for softball. Since the cafeteria at my college wasn't known for wonderful food and the snack bar hadn't been built yet, I opted for salads, cereal and other things that were somewhat healthy. Since the nearest fast food joint was 10 miles away, it wasn't convenient to just hop over to grab a burger at Sonic whenever I wanted to. I was also "in love" so I was focused on things other than my weight. To this day, I couldn't even tell you how much I lost, just that a few photos from my Freshman year in college showed me looking really good by the time January and February rolled around. I was wearing size 8-10, with an occasional 7 thrown in! My Sophomore year, they built the snack bar, I quit softball and gained everything I lost and then some! The worst of it is when I worked at a Guest Ranch in Colorado during the summers and enjoyed the Mexican Tuesdays, BBQ Thursdays, and Saturday night buffet with a GIGANTIC dessert table! The biggest humiliation came my Senior Year when I couldn't fit in any of my dresses I'd worn for proms/formals in the past and had to wear a plain dress. (That's what I get for assuming I'd just wear something I'd worn 2 years before)
20-25 years later, I'm still about 50-60 pounds over where I want to be! I've gotten REALLY good at complaining about how I look and how I need to lose weight but I'm also REALLY BAD about doing something about it! I lost 25 pounds on Weight Watchers but eventually quit going. I lost the same 25 pounds on another weight loss plan that I couldn't afford after awhile, so gained that back, too. I've been a member of too many gyms to count. I even spent $1,000+ on a personal trainer I didn't really get any benefit from!
Looking back, I can easily see what my #1 biggest hurdle is: MY BRAIN!! It sure knows how to sabotage things! I know what I SHOULD be doing, but my brain tells me "it's okay to sleep in this morning, you don't need to go workout". "It's okay to eat this stuff, you can get back on track tomorrow." I have a visual in my brain of a healthy "Me" but getting that out of there and into reality is another story.
I've taken some steps to get this going:
1. Ordered a heart rate monitor
2. Ordered more comfortable shoes for Zumba
3. Asked friends who are heavily involved in fitness for advice. One friend is a female who is in great shape. She's about 15 years younger than I am, but she did have some good advice. Another friend of mine is a guy who I've known literally all my life. He's managed several gyms and is very into weight lifting. I'm hoping that he'll have some good ideas, too, and then I can put those ideas together to make my vision into reality.
But, I'll have to outsmart my brain in the process!!
Have a Super Saturday, all!
GOD BLESS AMERICA!!
F.R.O.G. (Fully Rely On God!!)