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Thursday, February 13, 2014

The new year is going good for healthy eating, regular exercise, weightloss, and mental toughness about all of it. It feels good to make wise choices. I feel in control and confident. I am not richer, more famous, younger, nor do I look much different but I FEEL so much better about it all.

I weighed in today for a little challange at a local ladies fitness club and have lost 8 lbs this new year. We have 6 more weeks to go and I hope to drop another 5. That'll take off all of the gain from the past few months. Then I'll have those last 3 pounds to hit the goal I set almost 3 years ago. I plan to do that by June 1.

I am yearning again to hit that goal. I had kinda left it by the wayside for a year or so but that just led to weight gain. I am willing to accept 5 lbs of teetering but I want to squelch the yo-yo even with 15 lbs. I like the way I look/feel give or take a few pounds and it's not about the # but how I feel in my clothes and my skin. I have to get this done!

My whole journey has been about slow and easy wins the race and practicing maintainance all the way through. It has made a tremendous difference. For the first time in my life I've maintained a loss for almost two years. That does not even sound real to me. I feel like I am telling someone else's story. I joined the MaintAinence team several months back but I still don't feel like One of THEM. I have continually had to battle putting on 10-15 pounds and losing them again. I guess that's why I feel this way. But I feel closer to that title today.

The journey has been ???!!!?!!? Unexplainable?! So many ups and downs. So many rationalizations. So many temptations. So many hard lessons. Then one day you realize that you have arrived. OMG I made it! Then you ask yourself, "Do I like it here enough to continue to do what it takes to stay here?" Because we know that reverting back to old habits and lifestyle will just take us back to that fat, unhappy place. It's easy to say that you rather not go back there but are you willing to do it? Who doesn't want to be happy to get dressed in something cute in just the right size? Who doesn't want to be able to jump the waves and walk the paths? Who doesn't want to feel sexy? Who wants to consistently and diligently eat right and exercise?

Right here. Right now. Today. I want to. I like this place. I want to be here. I will do what it takes.

That fat, unhappy place will always be there, waiting. I can always go back if I choose. If I choose food for comfort. if I use food to numb my emotions. If I want to be pittied. If I want to wait to be rescued. If I want to seek solace and run away. If I want immediate satisfaction of my taste buds. I can have it all. I do not have to deny myself of anything.

I am a different person than I was when I started this journey 2 1/2 yrs ago. My path has changed and I deal with things differently. 2014 another year of learning and progress. emoticon

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    emoticon WE all have been there when we finally reached that goal we have been working on, but then now comes the part where we have to maintain our goal. I am not sure which one I found to be the most difficult, but I do know that it's all worth it! You should be so proud of yourself and your accomplishments! I believe we are our own heroes and that in a lot of ways, we create our destiny! I know God is in control of our lives, but we have to do some of the work! I find there are days when I could allow myself to go back to my old ways, but then I tell myself that leaning on God to give me strength instead of food is my choice! We can all be healthy and strong together! You are a great example to everyone! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    I agree thin feels better than fat in so many ways, it's not where I ever want to go back to, in fact I never wanted to be there in the first place. Like you and many other's we've learned through our trials how to overcome our flesh. emoticon
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  • THOMS1
    emoticon Great Blog!
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  • _LINDA
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    You are doing great! Those pounds are going to be history, once and for all!
    1296 days ago
    Loved reading your blog. You're doing great! emoticon
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    Woo Hoo to you Tricia!!!! I loved your blog! There was something in it that so resonated with me that I had to share it with my sister! She will recognise it right away!
    I think it was the one regarding joining the Maintenance team and not feeling like you really "belonged". I remember I felt sort of like a fraud. I had lost 160 lbs and was still within 15 lbs of my goal. What is that about! I had kept 150 lbs off for like two or three years! What we don't do to ourselves! Anyway! Congrats on your success. You look fabulous but you don't need me or anyone else to tell you that! You go Girl!
    1296 days ago
    Congratulations on your weight loss and new confidence. Best wishes on the journey of maintenance. Linda from bean town emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1296 days ago
    Great blog! Great attitude!
    Congratulations on your success!
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  • SUNSHINE20113
    Lovely blog!! So well-expressed - especially about becoming one of THEM!! I could totally relate.
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    Fabulous blog! Not one of THEM?! You ARE! You've already fought the big battle of keeping weight off for two years, and you look wonderful! Congrats on your success this year (I'm still trying to shed those holiday/winter darkness pounds), and best wishes for hitting your goal.
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    Terrific! Slow and steady wins the race! You have the success down and it feels good to stick with it. Congratulations!
    1297 days ago
    Rock it girl! You're doing AWESOME! Keep up the great work! :)
    1297 days ago
    in a way we are always finding something new to maintain - an attitude - a weight - a habit of choices - a preference for a food - a favorite exercise. it's just something we work on and experience afresh all the time. You're at a super good place right now - what fun! And as you move to another super good place you'll just learn so much more about you and what makes you feel good.

    it's an amazing journey - this thing called life.
    1297 days ago
    Wonderful essay!
    1297 days ago
    It's definitely a learning experience, with such amazing changes taking place in so many areas.

    You are amazing and an inspiration. Congrats on all of your successes, and the not so great ones that motivated you to keep pushing.

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    emoticon Living the healthy lifestyle is the only way to live for me now.
    1297 days ago
    Excellent blog!! You are so right - we can never go back to that old lifestyle. But it is so worth it, this new life we are living. I never want to go back!!
    1297 days ago
    Great blog! Thanks so very much for sharing your thinking, your successes, your struggles, and more. It does help that we are all in this together. You are successfully maintaining a big loss, even if you want to lose a bit more. You definitely belong on our team. You are living it!! Congrats on being highlighted. Well deserved. -Marsha
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  • HOLLYM48
    It isn't always easy, you are so right about that, but we are so worth the effort it takes to keep up where we are, in maintenance! Best of luck to you on your continued journey and congrats on all that you have achieved!
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  • KANOE10
    That was a great blog. You have made the decision that you are not returning to your old weight and that you will reach your goal. Maintenance is a continual daily effort and a commitment to yourself. All of us have ups and downs and lessons to learn.
    I agree with you..how you feel and how you fit your clothes is as important as the number on that scale.

    You sound confident and ready to continue your success. Well done.

    1316 days ago
    Your determination is evident!
    1317 days ago
    You are so right!

    I, too, had to come to the point that I realized I could not go back to old ways without going back to the old weight. Now is so much better in health and feelings, and this time I'm willing to do what it takes to stay here.
    1317 days ago
    "Do I like it here enough to continue to do what it takes to stay here?" That's the question I come back to again and again myself. And: yes I do. Love the confidence you're now expressing that you have done this and will continue to do what it takes!
    1317 days ago
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