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The Good, the Bad and the Ugly (inspired by PIXIE-LICIOUS)

Thursday, February 13, 2014

If you follow Pixie-Licious's blog, you've seen she has been bravely sharing the struggles surrounding her recent regain. If you've been following my blog, you know I've been struggling with similar issues (nearly 15 pounds) and the fight to get back on track. In a recent blog, Pixie chronicles "the good, the bad and the ugly" of her regain and decision to get back on track. Here's mine!

The Good

It is HARD to find something GOOD about a regain! But I will say, I always weighed myself through out -- even if it prompted self-loathing and obsession -- and though the scale is an imperfect instrument (understatement) I believe it is why I did not gain more than I did. I've taken complete breaks from the scale before and I always gained like crazy. As much as I hate it sometimes, I've come to accept the scale as a daily part of my life -- forever.

The Bad

After a year plus break from unhealthy eating, I dove back in with both feet! It's like my taste buds have become re-sensitized to hyperpalatable foods and sweets and they are even more alluring than ever before! The bad is definitely having to wrestle the nutrition demons back into submission all over again after having done successfully before.

The Ugly

Here's the ugly -- everything I hate about my regain!

Tight size 12's
Aching feet
The way my stomach sticks out when I'm seated
The way my stomach sticks out when I'm standing!
Getting out of breath on two flights of stairs
Less agile in my Zumba class
Starting to fish those 14's out of the back of the closet (hell no!)
Feeling out of control
Having people still compliment me on my weight loss because they can't really tell the difference and I'm still so much smaller than I used to be -- meanwhile, I know I've regained some and feel guilty accepting the compliment.
Being scared other people are noticing the difference, too.
I just feel less healthy, less vibrant, less energetic, less confident. I hate to put TOO much emphasis on the numbers but even though there's MORE of me, I feel LESS of everything (breakthrough on why I struggle with my weight, right there, in some ways fat is like an emotional anesthetic).

So, there you go, the good, the bad and ugly of my regain. Thanks for the inspiration, Pixie!
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SGTSUNNY 2/15/2014 2:22PM

    I am with you and have gained 15 lbs back, but am back on track. As you will be, the hardest part it admitting the problem. You have the tools to lose the weight, you have proved it in the past

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CHERIJ16 2/13/2014 1:11PM

    Are you sure you didn't write this about me?! LOL I am struggling to get back to the motivation and commitment I had when I first started SP a year ago. BUT I won't give up! emoticon

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MEBAZI 2/13/2014 12:40PM

    I can relate to this blog! And I love how you listed everything out! I totally need to do this!!! You are very inspirational! Thanks for sharing!!!

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KEELIE21 2/13/2014 12:34PM

    Knowing is half the battle emoticon

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FUNLOVEN 2/13/2014 12:16PM

    I think this pretty much outlines how we all feel when we regain weight that we worked so hard to lose. Blogging can most certainly help us vent and organize our thoughts so that we can develop a plan that works for us!


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PATTISTAMPS 2/13/2014 11:02AM

    OH WOW!!! You hit the nail on the head... Emotional anesthesia. ABSOLUTELY!! I can remember in my 20's getting down to a really good weight and size, and I couldn't handle the attention from others (and the lack of it from my then-husband) and regained it all - and then some. I have recognized the issue, and as I get older, it is less of an issue (not too many guys come on to 61 year old women! LOL)

Here's to KNOWING you are not going to have to wear those 14s!!! You are going to get rid of this regain, because it does not make you happy!

Kick BUTT!!

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PENNYSAVER2 2/13/2014 10:33AM

    Thanks for sharing. emoticon you will be back on track soon.
Remember, YOU are worth the effort!!

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BIGPAWSUP 2/13/2014 9:54AM

    Well, you have a firm grasp on where you are, and that is a start.

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