Thursday, February 13, 2014
It's Not The Right Time
This excuse of "Not Being The Right Time" was my mantra, for umpteen million years. I didn't realize how I was sabotaging myself, on a daily basis! I would tell myself, that I was going to a party, visiting someone, on the road, working long hours, you get the idea. Any excuse I could come up with I felt it justified me not starting my lifestyle change.
So, I had to evaluate my timing. I never did this with speaking the truth to myself, as back in the day, it was a DIEt and not a lifestyle change. I would have a beginning point and an ending point, but before I reached the ending point, I had already given up and quit, for one reason or another. It never was a good reason, but I felt I had the perfect excuse for letting my DIEt go, by the way side.
Now, with my lifestyle change, I took stock in the fact, that I honestly had to look at myself. God brought it before my eyes and my mind and there was no escaping the truth of the situation. Thanks God! I had to ask myself some hard questions, some of which were: Was I facing a major life issue? Yes, I was! Not only because of my MORBID OBESITY, but because of the car accident. I had to, at that time it was not a "I Choose To" moment, listen to what God was telling me and to act on it, in order for me to literally survive.
Was something in my life demanding a huge amount of my time and energy, right now? I had no ordinary life. My entire life lay in that hospital bed, not knowing at times, if I was going to live or die.
Was my life important enough, to me, to fight and live? God showed me that it was, and that's when the lifestyle change happened. Now, I would not have picked this time to start anything like this, but God saw fit to mold the plan around my physical healing, while I spent those 6 months in the hospital. He wrapped me in his loving arms and helped me through the whole ordeal. There were many times that He literally carried me, as I had nothing left to give. I went through so many fiery furnace trials, but God saw fit to bring me through each and every one, as PURE GOLD!
When I saw the surgeon that had listened to God and repaired my broken body, even when he told me that he was going to amputate my leg, I told him "Thank you, for letting God in an saving my leg and saving my life. If you had not let God in, I wouldn't have a leg, and I would be in the wheel chair, which you told me I would be in the rest of my life, I would have weighed more than the 388 lbs. and my heart would have given out and I would have died." That was spoken on 10 Jul 13. I had no idea, until 2 weeks ago, how prophetic those words were, and how God really showed up and showed out with me. I saw my cardiologist and he was still amazed how God had transformed me, and he told me he had never seen anything like it, in his life. He wants to do some tests on me, so he can encourage others, by using my data, that he gathers. Well, he proceeded to tell me that my echocardiogram was excellent, even the right side of my heart. I stopped him and asked him about the information he gave me. I asked him what about the right side of my heart. He then disclosed that I was one step away from a heart attack, with no way of recovering, which means I would have died. Now, that took place on 28 Jan 14. It hit me like a ton of bricks, what God had come out of my mouth to the surgeon and I had no idea I was speaking the truth about me! It shocks me to the core, to think how close I was to death, yet God in his mercy and grace saw something in me, and said my mission here on earth wasn't finished. I started crying and I could only say, "Thank you God!"
I'm here for a purpose! I'm here to edify God! I'm here to encourage others! I'm HERE! Is this the right time for my lifestyle change, YOU BETCHA! In the midst of all of this going on, I unconsciously changed my "I Have To" into I Choose To," which backs up yesterday's lesson.
Now, today's assignment I won't being doing because it doesn't apply to me, but I'll lay it out for those of you, who are following my blogs.
You need to evaluate how your program is going so far. Ask yourself, "Is this a right time for you to work on losing weight?"
If not, make a list of reasons why it doesn't seem to be the right time. Measure your list against the criteria of major life event or any big issues that demand your time and energy.
If losing weight is truly important to you, make it the right time. In your notebook, write a few ideas on how to get around the roadblocks in your daily life and make your diet work in spite of those obstacles.
- Nancy Jean -