Lost Hope.. trying to find that motivation again
Thursday, February 13, 2014
Well I have 4 wonderful, healthy, gorgeous little boys. But, each of my pregnancies I am unable to workout due to preterm labor. I also eat like a crazy lady when pregnant. In short, I have gained around 60 pounds with each of my four boys. I am not one of those, gain the baby weight and it falls off kind of ladies. EACH time after having a baby I have had to fight to get that weight off, fight hard. Each time has been harder than the time before. First time, fell off as soon as I started trying, second, had to push a bit harder but got it off. After my third son, I had to work hard to get it off and it took over a year. This time, my son if 9 months old and I am still no where near my goal.
My husband deployed back in September and is now coming back this month. I look the same, and I feel like I failed us both.
It was pretty much impossible for me to lose weight while he was gone, my stress level was at an all time high.
It is not easy raising four boys, all 6 and under, by myself. Especially while living in ND and it's often way to cold to even leave the house.
I feel my health is declining. I really need to step it up, now.
I don't know why my motivation is so hard to come by. I look in the mirror and get sad, I am always thinking of healthier options, but seldom do it.
Anyone have any tips? I really need to step it up so I can be a healthy mommy to my boys!
Deployment, with children was pretty much the hardest thing I have ever done. So glad it's almost over.