Wednesday, February 12, 2014
I went off the rails. This story is getting kind of old. I used to tell people that I was not an emotional eater. Here's the thing. I don't binge and purge when I'm feeling low. I don't sit on my couch and eat a quart of ice cream. I don't actively eat more food when I'm in a funk.
What I do is get lackadaisical which might be worse because it's insidious. If I were binging or eating twelve tacos in a sitting or baking a pan of brownies and then sitting down in front of them with a fork I would recognize my cycle and I could stop it in it's tracks. Instead I find excuses to eat badly and not move. "I have a cold so I don't feel like cooking" "It's snowing so I don't want to go shopping" "My produce store closed so I can't shop for fresh produce" (Yes sadly that did happen)
I re-committed this weekend and put myself back on a clean (ish) and healthy eating program.
The good news is that I did not gain any of the weight back from last month. I'm still at the same place so I'm just going to kick it off from here and get back on track. Monday and Tuesday I was scrambling to get up to my minimum on calories and fat but today I've planned a bit better.
I picked up this Bobs Red Mill Black Bean Soup Medley (I think it's called) and threw the beans in the crock with chopped tomatoes, sweet corn, smoked turkey sausage, smoked ham and some spices and let it go for almost ten hours. I took it out this morning, let it cool and portioned it. I'm having it for lunch right now I'm heating it up and it smells like heaven!