whoops, I mean, where have *I* been???
Working like a crazy person, mostly. I hate it, but that's a very long boring depressing story. So I will skip it.
Still been getting walks with Turtle Puppy, though not as brisk or as long as I would like, because, MAN IT IS COOOOOLLLD out there. AWFUL. I hate it. I am probably dealing with some winter blues.
But I finally hit a wall. I always have to. I was like I AM SICK OF THIS. Of feeling like I "can't" do anything to take care of myself.
Forget that. I'll do what I want. Work cannot run my life.
So this past weekend, Mr. Turtle and I went and finally (FINALLY. I've been talking about this since JULY) toured the town rec center. It's cheaper than the gym we used to belong to. AND THEY HAVE A GIANT POOL. GIANT POOL FOR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! And just to stop myself from possibly feeling like "oh it's a hassle to go" I timed the drive home. It is six minutes from my house.
So. No excuse. I used to walk 6 minutes to the pool; now I will DRIVE six minutes to the pool. We are going to go join up this weekend. Would've done it on the spot but they don't do joining on Sundays and you have to bring a bill doohikey as proof of residence, blah blah blah.
So that will be great. Lack of exercise is making me GROUCHY. Well... it's exacerbating everything ELSE that makes me grouchy. hee hee hee.
The honesty with myself continued last night... I was like. Yeah. Exercising will be great. but exercise alone is not going to make you lose weight! Your #1 problem is portion control! You eat to much! You gotta track, buddy.
So I weighed myself this morning. 257. OOF. We have crossed the No Man's Land 255 boundary, and OH NO, I DON'T THINK SO PEOPLE. I WILL NOT BE NO TWO SIX NOTHING NO SIR NO MA'AM.
And I already tracked my breakfast as I made it, my lunch once I decided what it will be, and my dinner, ditto.
I feel like my old self again.
Why have I been avoiding tracking for months, all "wahhhh it's harrrrrd"???? It took 5 minutes. And like I said: I feel like my old self again.
140 calories left for the day. I am saving them for dessert. Have a good snack - need to save it for the afternoon, that's when I need a snack the most.
Chicken is in the crock pot. Stuff to make butternut squash-bean-spinach soup on the side.
Already down 4c of water with a 3c bottle of practically no cal iced tea ready to go.
Again... I've been avoiding this why? I'm crushing it. I did this for MONTHS. I lost 50lbs. What's hard for who now? Shut up brain. I got this.
I'm a dumbpants. But I'm back. Cautiously optimistically back. Hopefully back right through the summer, and charging into the "overweight" category.
Sorry I vanished. I super missed you all. Here is a picture of Turtle Puppy saying NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DON'T WASH MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! hopefully that helps...