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Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Well, I woke up this morning in a not so good mood. I don't really want to go to work, but I know I have to. I'm probably going to fail the class I'm taking. We were supposed to have a study group last night, but everyone met an hour earlier than the agreed upon time, so I wasn't able to participate. They were all on-line while I had session with the therapist. I really don't want to deal with my students today. I'm not in the mood to be arguing with them all day long. And, we have team meeting today, which means I won't be able to leave work until like 5:00 instead of 3:30.

I do plan on going to church tonight. I haven't been in church for the past week because of weather and being out of town on Sunday. Actually, it's been over a week because last Wednesday church was cancelled.

I don't think Pastor Bill is ever going to meet with me. We've been trying to meet since December and each time it gets cancelled for one reason or another. The last time I was at church, he wouldn't really talk to me since I was thinking about cutting and had drawn on my wrist. I really want to cut right now. It's just screaming in my brain. I can't focus on anything else.

Then, to make matters worse, I have to go deal with my parents this weekend. I think I'm going to wait and go down on Sunday instead of going for the whole weekend. But, I will be there until lunchtime on Tuesday. I have an eye appt Tuesday morning that I will be going to in my hometown. But, after lunch I'll head home. So, next week I am only working 3 days because Monday is President's Day.

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    I am sorry Bekah, that this did not go well with your meeting. Despite not being able to study like you wished too, I pray that you still did well on your test. I am glad you are going to church tonight. Just getting out and being with people is good. I pray you be blessed as you listen to the music and the message. May the words shared encourage your heart.
    Please hang on things will get better.
    1499 days ago
    That's too bad the meeting was later than you usually get off work. Pray before each class if you don't yet. That always helps me when I don't want to do something. I pray your eye appt goes well and that your therapy appt went well.
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    1499 days ago
    Right! Take the day one minute at a time. God is the answer any way not the pastor. He may not know what to say but when you are in church he knows He can help that way. Not making excuses just saying he may care more than you know. Ge the play dough! And play ~~ ( I WILL PLAY TO WHEN I THINK OF YOU. )
    1499 days ago
    Bekah, Sorry to hear things didn't go well with the meeting etc. Seems when it rains it pours, but don't give up! It's a new day with new opportunities. God will be with you. Glad you can get out to church. Hopefully you will be able to meet with your pastor and get refueled from the service. Hope the meeting with your parents over the weekend goes well. Just remember you don't go alone. God is right there with you. Will keep you in prayer for sure! Take care and have a good day. You are a strong person and a daughter of the King. Your friend, Eileen
    1499 days ago
    Love you, Bekah. I am glad you will be going to church tonight. God bless you and be with you today as you are at work and as you go to your parents on Sunday. Hang in there. And get that play dough. It just might help. Hugs, Judi.
    1499 days ago
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