Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Well, I woke up this morning in a not so good mood. I don't really want to go to work, but I know I have to. I'm probably going to fail the class I'm taking. We were supposed to have a study group last night, but everyone met an hour earlier than the agreed upon time, so I wasn't able to participate. They were all on-line while I had session with the therapist. I really don't want to deal with my students today. I'm not in the mood to be arguing with them all day long. And, we have team meeting today, which means I won't be able to leave work until like 5:00 instead of 3:30.
I do plan on going to church tonight. I haven't been in church for the past week because of weather and being out of town on Sunday. Actually, it's been over a week because last Wednesday church was cancelled.
I don't think Pastor Bill is ever going to meet with me. We've been trying to meet since December and each time it gets cancelled for one reason or another. The last time I was at church, he wouldn't really talk to me since I was thinking about cutting and had drawn on my wrist. I really want to cut right now. It's just screaming in my brain. I can't focus on anything else.
Then, to make matters worse, I have to go deal with my parents this weekend. I think I'm going to wait and go down on Sunday instead of going for the whole weekend. But, I will be there until lunchtime on Tuesday. I have an eye appt Tuesday morning that I will be going to in my hometown. But, after lunch I'll head home. So, next week I am only working 3 days because Monday is President's Day.