Sunday, February 09, 2014
Today I woke up and I felt heavier. I decided I wasn't going to weigh myself because nothing good was going to come from that. So I showered and starting doing my makeup. Then my boyfriend came into my room (he has also been working to lose a little weight) and proudly told me he had lost 4lbs! I felt so proud of him but also unsure of myself. We had both been eating relatively the dame (granted he is a bit healthier, and is much better at saying no, and has no sweet tooth at all, but still, practically the same). So I went in and weighed myself. And I have gained back the 3lbs I had lost. And so I cried. He tried to comfort me but I wasn't having it. I had to suck it up though because his parents were driving down to visit for the day and would be here in half an hour. So I sucked it up and got ready. But I was down all day.
We went grocery shopping with them since we don't have a car. The foods we got were almost the same as we normally do but as we put things in the cart they would say "what recipe are you planning to make with that?" which made me realize how often I just throw things in the cart with no idea of what it is or what I'm going to do with it. So I quickly pulled out my phone and a couple of recipes I had been wanting make and the bill was a much healthier one. His family is very healthy, his dad is vegan and his mom and sisters eat extremely healthy, so it makes sense he doesn't like sweets or processed foods because he was raised in a completely different lifestyle than me.
Then we came back to our apartment and his dad made us some kafte (a turkish red lentil and bulgar dish) and he made some asparagus risotto.
And (drum roll please...) today has been the first day since I've been on SP that I have been under 1300 calories (1254) and the first time in about 2 weeks I have even been in my calorie range and the first time in just over a week I haven't bought something from a take out place. And I feel great. Maybe all I needed was someone to walk me through the store and help me think about what I am putting in the cart. I can see now what I can make and how quickly it can be done. I have foods that are now prepared for the rest of the week. I feel like I should have said thank you, I know they have no idea how much I appreciated their coming and their help.
Most importantly I feel like a completely different person than I did this morning. I feel like I have a plan and I can follow through and I can do this.