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All in a Day

Sunday, February 09, 2014

Today I woke up and I felt heavier. I decided I wasn't going to weigh myself because nothing good was going to come from that. So I showered and starting doing my makeup. Then my boyfriend came into my room (he has also been working to lose a little weight) and proudly told me he had lost 4lbs! I felt so proud of him but also unsure of myself. We had both been eating relatively the dame (granted he is a bit healthier, and is much better at saying no, and has no sweet tooth at all, but still, practically the same). So I went in and weighed myself. And I have gained back the 3lbs I had lost. And so I cried. He tried to comfort me but I wasn't having it. I had to suck it up though because his parents were driving down to visit for the day and would be here in half an hour. So I sucked it up and got ready. But I was down all day.

We went grocery shopping with them since we don't have a car. The foods we got were almost the same as we normally do but as we put things in the cart they would say "what recipe are you planning to make with that?" which made me realize how often I just throw things in the cart with no idea of what it is or what I'm going to do with it. So I quickly pulled out my phone and a couple of recipes I had been wanting make and the bill was a much healthier one. His family is very healthy, his dad is vegan and his mom and sisters eat extremely healthy, so it makes sense he doesn't like sweets or processed foods because he was raised in a completely different lifestyle than me.

Then we came back to our apartment and his dad made us some kafte (a turkish red lentil and bulgar dish) and he made some asparagus risotto.

And (drum roll please...) today has been the first day since I've been on SP that I have been under 1300 calories (1254) and the first time in about 2 weeks I have even been in my calorie range and the first time in just over a week I haven't bought something from a take out place. And I feel great. Maybe all I needed was someone to walk me through the store and help me think about what I am putting in the cart. I can see now what I can make and how quickly it can be done. I have foods that are now prepared for the rest of the week. I feel like I should have said thank you, I know they have no idea how much I appreciated their coming and their help.

Most importantly I feel like a completely different person than I did this morning. I feel like I have a plan and I can follow through and I can do this.
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    Ok, well, this is completely unrelated but it's the first thing that came to mind -

    When I was growing up, I always knew I wanted to be a veterinarian. As a kid, my family turned to me for advice regarding animals. I was the little vet. Then, I actually went to vet school and realized how little I knew. I knew so little, I didn't even KNOW I had no clue. Then, I studied hard and graduated and thought, now I know everything. But then I started a job and realized, they can't teach you everything in school...and I realized that I'm back to not knowing anything, but it is getting better and has gotten so now almost 2 years after graduating.

    So your grocery shopping reminded me of that. We decide that we want to lose weight, so we sign up for a website and and we start plugging in our foods and every week, we are disappointed. But maybe over time, especially as we meet people, read blogs and become more educated/aware, we start to make better and better choices. We make more and more progress. Making the decision to change doesn't mean we have all of the tools that we need.

    I think what you've now recognized is that a) what you've been doing might not be what works for you b) you have people in your life who can set a great example for you and teach you a lot and c) you don't have to do it alone d) you are still working on building your tools up to help you lose the weight. What I knew on day one of vet school compared to what I knew when I graduated is like night and day. It's the same with weight loss. We just have to keep learning and making changes until we figure out what works for us.

    The scale is nothing more than a tool to use to tell you if what you're doing is working or not. Your 3 pound gain is nothing more than a tool - time to tweak things and learn new things and add to your toolbox. That's all!

    You've done a fantastic job by just getting your food into the tracker. Take the next step to stay in range more frequently and try different recipes. Just keep moving forward and you'll reap the rewards!

    You're doing great, just keep it up!
    1467 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/12/2014 4:24:41 PM
    I remember going through something very similar a while ago. What really helped me was also grocery shopping. I went to the store with specific recipes in mind. I had many fruits and veggies in my shopping cart and when I checked out the cashier said, "Well you look like one healthy eater." It made me proud of my choices. Keep up the good start with your drum roll news!
    1470 days ago
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