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My need to come back

Sunday, February 09, 2014

As some of you know, on Jan. 7 my beloved DH was diagnosed with stage 4 lung/liver cancer. Our God had/has a plan and He received Chet back into His heavenly fold on Jan. 18. I feel Chet's presence everyday. He will always be my Special Angel.

This has been a difficult journey, but I know if I continue to take one day at a time with the grace of God, I will have the strength and courage to continue.

On my Spark page I have a part of the Serenity prayer. I would like to share the whole prayer with you as I feel comfort in reading it in its entirety.

God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; enjoying one moment at a time; accepting hardship as a pathway to peach. Taking as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it. Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; that I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him forever in the next. Amen

A Spark friend sent me the "Foot prints in the Sand" poem. Looking back on these past days, I can only say He has carried me more than me walking alone.

I want to thank all who have continued their support. I can feel the love in each written word. I am trying to get some daily structure in my life, so I will be Sparking again. Working on staying healthy and finding a positive attitude along the way. (HUGS) Barb

For those of you following my niece's battle with ovarian cancer: her scans and blood work continue to look good. Your prayers and good thoughts are truly helping with this...
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    I've been thinking of you these last few days and thought I would leave you a friendly note. On reading your blog I was saddened to know of your husband's passing.

    What can I say that hasn't been said to comfort you? I'm sorry just doesn't seem to be enough.

    My thoughts and my heart are with you.

    1449 days ago
    emoticon Welcome Back Barb. I have been on and off here lately and just seem your posting. I do know how hard this is. I so feel your pain. If you just want to talk send me an e-mail, I am here for you. Focus on your happy memories and keep them close to your heart, that truly helps me get through a lot of rough days. We are all here for you!!!!!! Feel my hugs (((((4U)))).
    1465 days ago
  • ZIGGY122
    I have missed you... sorry for you loss. emoticon
    1467 days ago
    Hi my dear friend...I just saw this posting and I am so happy to "see" you. You are so strong, Barb and I know that Chet and the Lord are helping you through this. This was all so shocking and it happened so fast and you will need lots of time to accept and try to understand this great loss. This journey of life is so hard at times but with our faith in God, our family and our friends we will get through it slowly. You know I am here for you always. I haven't been on too much lately but I will send you a message with my regular email address and my facebook name if you want to contact me that way. Sending you hugs and much love. xoxo
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    1468 days ago
    I am so glad God is giving you strength to get through each day. My prayers go out to you. It is so hard to lose a loved one.
    1469 days ago
    God bless you Barb. I too have been thinking of you often and praying that the Good Lord is watching over you. I am happy to hear that your Beloved Chet is also with you and looking over you. It makes such a difference! We are here anytime to encourage or even just listen. Continued prayers for Laurie also!

    Prayers, love and hugs!

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    1469 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/10/2014 2:12:02 AM
    1469 days ago
    I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved husband, it is so comforting to know that you have your own angel in heaven. Sounds like you are getting back into the swing of your eating and exercise. We are here for you.

    Sending hugs and love. emoticon emoticon
    1469 days ago
    So sorry for your loss! But I am glad that you are back in the fold with the friends who love you and care about you. Fill your days with the wonderful memories and hold him close in your heart. God saw his pain and now he lives with the angels. HUGS!
    1470 days ago
    So sorry for your loss. Just saw this today. Prayers and love~ Sandi
    1470 days ago
    Sorry for your loss. Prayers said. Good luck.
    1470 days ago
    My prayers are with you and your family on your loss of your precious dh. emoticon emoticon
    1470 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss. I'm glad that you came back to be with us as we have missed you. emoticon
    1470 days ago
    I think of you everyday Barb. I am glad that you will be sparking. Sending emoticon
    1470 days ago
    One day at a time that is what I think too.. take care. emoticon
    1470 days ago
    You have been on my mind so much. I know that God has a plan but it doesn't make the pain of the loss any easier. My heart goes out to you.

    Glad to hear that your niece is doing well. Keeping her in my prayers.

    hugs...Mary Anne
    1470 days ago
    Thank you for the huddle note to visit your blog. Wishing you peace that passes all understanding. emoticon
    1470 days ago
    Welcome back my dear friend! One day at a time is perfect! I am glad to hear Chet is always with you. In times like these that is most important.
    Reach out to God, family, friends or US here on Sparks. We are all here for you!

    Love, hugs and many blessings,

    1470 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/13/2014 9:53:42 PM
  • DALID414
    1470 days ago
    ((((((UGS)))))) emoticon emoticon

    I am glad for the news about your niece.

    You know you're in my thoughts and prayers.
    1470 days ago
    Barb, I am so sorry to hear of your loss of your life partner. I lost my husband January 28 also and know your pain. My God be with you and hold you close.
    1470 days ago
    Welcome Back Barb, your Spark family is here for you.

    Keeping you in my prayers.

    1470 days ago
    HUGs! I'm so sorry for your loss.
    1470 days ago
    God Bless, Barb. Chet is with you and will always be with you. This earthly realm is not the end, only the beginning. You will be with each other again in His divine kingdom.

    Much love and many prayers to you.
    1470 days ago
    I'm so glad to see you back, Barb! Just take one day at a time. emoticon
    1470 days ago
    I am so sorry about the loss of your DH and Laurie's struggles - I will keep you and your family in my best thoughts!
    1470 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    So glad to see you back Barb! You can do this, it will be the biggest fight of your life, but you are right, Chet is your special angel and he will always be with you.
    I am so glad to hear you are eating healthy and watching out for yourself.
    I and so many others are right here cheering you on and walking this journey with you! Lean on us and your family and friends because that is what we are here for!
    Sending love and hugs and warmth to you always!
    1470 days ago
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