I want my life to feel like my own
Friday, February 07, 2014
Have you ever felt people put pressure on you to do something or to make a certain choice? Maybe something as simple as having an egg benedict at a restaurant when what you are really in the mood for is pancakes.
This may seem silly, but it is this kind of pressure from people, the expectation that you are a pushover and that they have control over you, that has led me to over-eating. This past week I have dealt with an acquaintance that seems very depressed and in turn is starting to make me depressed! I want to be there for her, but unfortunately I care so much that it feels like other people’s feelings, become my own. Lately, every time I have received a text message or a call, it has to do with some ordeal (losing a college ring) or a crying episode having to do with her parents.
The problem is that many of these people who try and drop their heavy emotional burdens are the same people that are not there for me emotionally when I have needed them in the past. I, by no means, have the perfect life, but I am definitely in a much happier place than I have ever been.
Losing weight and researching on emotional over eating has made me aware that depending on how you deal with situations like this, you can definitely do yourself more harm than good. It can be and has felt like poison. I am learning and still working on overcoming overeating when it comes to situations such as these but moving forward, it has taught me to put my foot down and to really reevaluate my friendships because in the end, the one that really matters is me.