I keep looking at the extended forecast, waiting to see that sunny, in the 40's or 50's day coming up. Hasn't happened yet. Still snowy and cold. Bummer.
I'm still struggling with the winter blues, although I've been taking Vitamin D and B12 supplements, and that has helped a lot. My energy level is still good, so most days I'm able to motivate myself to workout. I really enjoy working out and feel anxious when I can't fit it into my daily schedule.
I'm still struggling with feelings of anger and sadness when I look at the world around me and see the things that are still being done to animals. Abuse, being slaughtered for food, being used for research. And I look around at others who don't seem to feel the way I do. They don't struggle morally with eating meat or other animal products. It's just a way of life for them and they don't see anything wrong with it. I work as an administrative assistant in a lab, and I see research people who are good and kind people doing things to mice, rabbits, goats, pigs and dogs, and don't seem to have any problem with it. Doing things in the name of science makes it ok, I guess. I tried to talk to my husband about it last night and he said if it wasn't for the use of animals in research, we wouldn't have much of medical breakthroughs that we have now, and he said, "I hope you never get to a point where you need an animal to save your life." That got me thinking: would I sacrifice an animal's life to save my own? I just don't think I could.
Anyway, these feelings of sadness and anger are hard. I try to focus on positive and happy things. I don't want to dwell on the negative things in life because there are so many great things that happen and life is too short to feel sad and angry all of the time. I just wish there was something I could do. I know that being vegan is doing my part, but I just wish there was more I could do. My friends and family don't want to hear me talk about animal welfare or veganism. People don't seem to respond to an "in-your-face" approach to getting information out there about the abuse of animals. They'll get enraged about a video showing someone throwing puppies into a river, but they'll ignore the videos of calves being taken away from their mothers and the distress it causes both baby and mom, or the male baby chicks that are thrown into grinders because they're useless to the egg industry, or.....well, there are lots of videos out there that show atrocities being done every day in the animal product industry, but no one seems to care about that.
I try to remain hopeful that more and more people will realize that animals are living, loving creatures that deserve the same treatment as humans. I believe that someday we will live in a world where animals are no longer eaten, where research is done with computer programs, robotics, synthetic materials, etc. that no longer have to involve animals. I believe that one day we can all live together in peace and harmony, all creatures great and small, just as God intended.