Wednesday, February 05, 2014
I haven't posted any blogs lately but that doesn't mean I haven't been around.
I'm slowly trying to reprogram myself ... body and mind. With that and the vast amount of information I've been taking in I certainly don't want to be "that person" ... you know the one who suddenly discovers something new and shinny and thinks everyone should come along and play. HA!
The short version:
I have bumped up my calorie intake and my binge eating episodes have been reduced. I no longer hunt for food or panic about eating too much or too little. I'm a bit fluffier than I was but not by much yet I feel healthier.
Restructuring life so I no longer restrict calories to the point of hurting myself has been difficult. Less is NOT better.
I'm relearning that food is not evil. There are no good foods or bad foods ... just food. Peanut butter was off limits because I couldn't control myself around it. Well ... now peanut butter and I exist together - at home AND the office.
I'm still working on secret eating and suspect that will be a long process (as most of this will be) due to it starting around age six.
I'm also trying not to over train aka workout due to the increase in calories. That isn't a good place to live either.
Really what I'm trying to say is that I'm looking for balance in all that I do. It's a tough road and I get scared sometimes but it's better than slowly derailing and living in fear.
I've started to lift weights and minimize my cardio. But if I feel like banging out a cardio routine I get my groove on. I'm still walking too ... it's really a great form of exercise!
I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to discuss a few health related issues.
Joint stiffness in my hands
I think my thyroid meds need to be changed and I'd like her to order a blood sugar test.
I hope all is well! I'm often thinking of my SP peeps ...