Still and small . . .
Wednesday, February 05, 2014
I was late leaving the office last night and on my way home almost had a "close encounter" with a deer in the worst of ways. Thank goodness I'm saying "almost".
The road I travel is hilly and winding most of the way and very wooded. At 5:30 PM this time of year, it's twilight. Light rain was falling and as I came to the bottom of a curve, I saw two deer jumping across the road. From that distance, they almost looked like dogs but I slowed down anyway. When you see one or two, you can only guess there could be more. Since there was traffic behind me, the situation was tricky and I was more than uncomfortable.
What made it worse is that I was driving my new car. I had driven the same car for 16 years. It was paid for and relatively reliable and that was enough for me. At year end, we decided it was time that the repairs outweighed practicality, so I have this wonderful, new ride. It's so nice I almost feel like I shouldn't be driving it . . . that's just how my mind works. Crazy right?
Anyway, just as I suspected might happen, the third deer jumped out of the ditch only a few feet in front of me and bounded across the road. Since I had already slowed down, I missed it . . . but it was way too close for comfort. My heart felt like it was going to get to the house ahead of me from the adrenalin rush.
As you can imagine, it's all I thought about the rest of the way home. Now this new car just likes to move fast . . . ok, well, I know you're going to make me own some of the responsibility, as well I should, but the speed is so effortless I don't even realize how fast I'm going. Not at all like my other car.
This morning as I was preparing to go out the door once more my mind turned to the virtual "hurricane" that swirls around my life (it's called the family business) . . . and yet I know I'm not alone. There's that "still small voice" that whispers, "I'm with you . . . there is nothing ever to fear".
Why is it that when I try to "cast the whole of my care" they seem to stick to me like indelible ink? Then I'm reminded that my biggest struggle is to enter into peace. That's because entering this peaceful place is like going through the eye of a needle and there's just enough room for you. You have to let go of the cares to get through. Whoa, how is that possible?
Still and small is the voice . . . it's not groping for words either . . . I just need to be more attentive. More than that . . . responsive.
These words weigh so heavy on my heart today that I can't help but believe there is someone else out there that needs to hear this. No matter what dangers are out there, and there are many, I can listen to the "voice" and not be afraid.
Happy trails . . . peace out . .
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Love the example of the needle. -- Lou
657 days ago
I can so relate to this! we have lots of deer around and they r active at night and early morning, I have had a few encounters with them , close calls and I know exactly how you feel! u did the right thin g by slowing down when u saw one, b/c there will be more right behind the first one, so glad u were not hurt and your car did not get damaged. Have a wonderful day!
957 days ago
Peace, Love, and Joy! Those close encounters with danger can really shake us up. It can help us realize how truly blessed we are for each moment we are alive. Life is such a miracle! Beautiful blog. Thank you.
1303 days ago
Being self employed myself with my hubs for many, many years I know only too well the swirl of the business and the worry that goes with it. I have learned after the loss of our beloved son almost 8 years ago this coming May (has it REALLY been that long) that nothing in this world is worth losing your sanity over.
If you have a husband that loves you and a roof over your head and friends that make you smile...nothing else truly matters. Remembering this gives me much peace in times of turmoil and I hope it gives you peace when your head is swirling as well.
I learned that lesson the hard way...to pass that horrific lesson on is my duty to honor my sweet angel guy, whose loss brought it all home for me...my angel guy, my son.
1318 days ago
Great blog, so glad u knew that where there is one there usually are more ! I have had several encounters with our Deer friends as well and it does make your heart skip a beat! glad u and the car and deer were ok!
1322 days ago
Hi there. Read your blog today and my heart hurt for you. It’s been a crazy day, just really busy, and I haven’t had time to respond to it before now.
I know nearly hitting the deer had to be truly terrifying. Oh my goodness… talk about a close call. A happy ending to a hair-raising incident, I guess… no one hurt. Just shaken. I guess the deer was clueless, lol, that’s probably a good thing.
Glad you have that new vehicle. You deserve lovely things, that’s what our heavenly Father wants for us. Good, lovely, beautiful things. I’m sure that’s why Mr. Kitty came into your life……. To enrich a special couple even more than they have experienced already. Soooo…. Don’t feel guilty about that new vehic…. Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy. We got a new to us used Lincoln MKZ about 18 months ago……. Still pinching ourselves, truthfully. Not that having a nice car is that new to us, but we’ve had some ups and downs financially, and the MKZ was a huge step up from what we had, an Avalon ’98! Although the Avalon transmission was better, lol!! Good grief, Toyota does make a good product. ;)
Anyway…. Back to your blog……sorry for the stress in other areas …. Gosh, there is no end to stress, is there? We are always faced with things that stretch us. I’m convinced everyone is being stretched unless their heart has turned to stone … their conscience seared … and they have actually quit living, they’re just existing, while not knowing it. Sad. I’m not judging… just observing. It happens. And who knows how they became that way? A moot point, really. But, back to you, a true sweetheart, I can tell just from our short “friendship” – Hang in there…knowing you are special, and cherished….by your "real" family, including fur members, and, of course, your cyberfriends.
It’s all good…. An annoying phrase sometimes, but I think there’s some truth in it….when we see our lives as a work in progress……… remembering that success is truly a journey, not a destination.
1323 days ago
Loved the blog and the message. There is danger lurking around every corner but we can't live in fear. We have to proceed with caution and know that things will be as they should be.
1323 days ago
Great blog. I'm glad you are okay and that you can both listen to the voice and not be afraid.
1323 days ago
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