Wednesday, February 05, 2014
A miracle! Nine years later, 3 "losses" (failed to grow past a yolk sac), 200 pounds down from my weight in 2005, lots of hard work, pain, emotions, and progress...here it is...leaving the first trimester with a very healthy, active baby that jumped like a jelly bean away from the ultrasound wand.
I definitely have a major case of the pregnancy crazies. No sweeteners, no fast food, no "questionably" sourced animal products, no caffeine, no blue jeans, no belts, no hair products, no make up,, no household cleaners, no air freshener, no drier sheets... nothing that can be a source of toxins or expose me to unnecessary chemicals. I've gone shampoo-free via some research, I wash clothes with baby mild castile soap, and I've made my own dish soap because regular store bought is a source of parabens. Oh and no foods for me if they come out of BPA lined cans. If my poor husband didn't question my sanity before I'm pretty sure he does now....though strangely he finds it amusing to tell me how cute I'm being about trying to protect our growing child. It's not cute...I need a plastic bubble...or a straight-jacket but the bubble sounds like more fun!
I'm struggling to adjust my eating habits as it's just become a part of me to make low calorie, nutrition dense and usually lower carb choices but, I am working on providing all the nutrients possible to keep both baby and me with energy. Despite the fact the 400 mgs of progesterone I'm on until 16 weeks is leaving me dead tired. So tried in fact that walking about 1 mile at a time feels like running a marathon and typically requires a nap. But, it's all okay! Whatever I have to endure to bring a healthy, much wanted, much prayed and hoped for baby into this world I will go through and be the happiest I can possibly be about being miserable!
Well, off to wash dishes and follow it up with a nap.