Tuesday, February 04, 2014
i was just going through my spark teams and leaving the teams that were inactive or didn't fit in with my lifestyle anymore. i really need to become more active in teams (and the community in general). i ran across my sp class team. i joined sp in may of 2009. i remember the day i joined. i had been reading the amazon reviews on yet another crash diet book and someone recommended sp in their review. so i checked it out. i signed up right away (it was free!) and dove into the communities. i loved it from the get go! but i didn't lose weight. i was in the process of buying a house, money was (and still is) crazy, time was not something i had a lot of (still don't) and it was just a bad timing to commit to a whole new lifestyle.
the timing of joining sp was bad. i wasn't in a place in my life where i had the funds or desire to change my whole lifestyle. now i feel as though i am, money is an issue, but i'm on a quest to prove you can eat healthy and not break the bank. but is the drive there? is the desire to jump in & succeed still there? is the shiny new thing (sparkpeople) still an option? or do i need a whole new program? do i just need to start over on sp? do i need new (not replacement!) friends?
i love sparkpeople. i know it works, but is it still working for me? have i ever given sp the chance it deserves? i weigh the same, if not more, then when i first signed up. that's not sp's fault. that's mine. i don't think i have ever gone an entire month on plan doing exactly what i'm supposed to. i did really well this past november. but then the holidays got in the way, followed by a month of sickness and now all the success i had in november is gone. i am trying to find that desire and drive i had then, but it's tough. i know winter isn't helping, but i have to overcome that. can i do this? can i give it my all in february and have success and carry that success on? or do i need a whole new shiny toy?
after rereading all that, taking a trip to the drinking fountain and staring into the cold sunshine i have come up with a plan. i'm going to focus on sp, focus on the plan. do what i know i'm supposed to do. if by may i've made no progress i will find a new toy. i will change my usage of sp. i will be more active in the community as a whole. i'll use sp as it's intended. i'll track, i'll blog, i'll chat among teams friends and message boards. i'll read and reread articles. i'll give it the chance i've never given it. come may we'll see what happens. it's not fair for me to be here if i'm not giving it my all. sp is a great program, and i'm not representing it well. that's not fair to anyone.
i think i feel better now. i didn't realize i was feeling that way. now that i've come to this realization it's time to focus on a plan. first thing i know i need to do is track. i hate sp's tracking though. i don't like spending all the time it takes to track. i don't always have computer access, especially on the weekends. plus i have a bad tendency to give up entirely when i can't track perfectly. i'm going to track every bite until friday. then i'll come up with something over the weekend. hopefully by monday i can figure out a good way of tracking that fits my lifestyle.