Tuesday, February 04, 2014
So I have been laying low for quite awhile and figuring out what is wrong with me. I believe I had a bad case of the wintertime blues and I just stopped tracking my food, exercising, and even counting my steps. I was done with it. I needed a break and then I realized that when I stopped doing that, other areas in my life started falling apart as well.
I am a very organized individual and I noticed that since I stopped holding myself accountable for my fitness and eating, I was getting behind in my assignments for school and my work was taking a back seat. I had become a procrastinator. I had stopped taking care of myself as a whole and then I started drinking some more. I had been doing well on that front but it is something that I struggle with because I want that glass of wine occasionally but part of me wonders, since I grew up with an alcoholic, if I will ever be able to drink occasionally because I always end up finishing the bottle.
Then I remind myself how good I sleep and how less stressed I feel when I keep things organized and I am not drinking that bottle of wine. I felt good when I exercised, took a hot shower and then relaxed afterwards. I wasn't as depressed or sad when I did these things so why did I stop?
Well, I am back on track today and I have started by writing this blog. It is hard to get back on track when you have taken so much time off and made up every excuse possible as to why you shouldn't do that assignment or why you don't need to track your food. I went out and brought myself a food scale, a nice blender for my smoothies, and stocked up on lean meats and veggies. I am also checking out a Crossfit Gym that opened here I am.
So here is to standing up and staying strong.