Tuesday, February 04, 2014
I don't mean to complain, but I've got to. My husband came home yesterday from the barn with a stomach ache. Fell asleep at 130 in the afternoon, is still sleeping here at 445 am. Ii know he's not feeling well, and I shouldn't expect anything less from anyone, but geepers I've been up almost all night long, atleast every other hour on the hour with a child, the dog or having to put wood in the furnace. I'm sooo tired I gave up trying to sleep for just an hour time left its not worth it! Ugh how am I gonna manage today? I'm greatful he's startting to feel better after sleeping almost 14+ hrs, but honestly I'm jealous! Where's my break and rest? I don't ever get one! As I'm writing this, my littlest is stirring again, and the inside furnace has kicked on telling me to go check the outside when I only did it an hr ago! I'm sorry, I'm very tired, overworked and under appreciated today. I've only had a break so it seems is when I was in the hospital giving birth to my kids! I've had to work thru the stomach bug along side 3 kids who had it plus my husband! I'm angry because whenever he gets sick the world for him stops, me I've gotta keep going doind what I've always done! Its very aggrivating to me. Don't get me wrong, I love him and knows how hard he works for us, but I work just as hard as he does, where's my relief? I don't get any that's where! I'm sorry, I don't mean to complain, honestly I don't. I just don't get it that's all...it sucks!