Tuesday, February 04, 2014
Just a short one tonight:
If you'd asked me 6 years ago if I had any body image distortions, I would have loved and told you I loved every bit of me, that I was confident and proud of my curves and happy to be me. I wasn't. That's just how it is. If I'd been curvy and healthy, it probably would have been a different story.
Today, I bought a bathing suit for the first time since I was 16. That is a very long time. I still wear board shorts with it but the point is that I am willing to wear a bathing suit and go out in public to participate in AquaFit classes. Sure, I was one of the youngest people in the class by at least 20 years, but what I liked was that there was a communal sense of body image doesn't matter. I've dreaded communal showers since the tender age of 13. And I can now proudly say that while I was not 100% comfortable, I did utilize them. It helped a lot that I had a friend there who didn't have a care in the world about it, but yeah, it was really empowering.