February 3, 2014-A small victory.
Monday, February 03, 2014
I crashed my computer this past fall so I finally got a new one and it took forever to get a handle on Windows 8--UGH. But I'm back. Anyway, come January I jumped back on the weight loss train and picked up an accountability partner at work. This was something I really needed. So I started dealing with my emotions/feelings instead of eating them. I get stressed easily and at work food is way to handy, also that combined with sitting at a desk most of the day is not a healthy situation
Well this afternoon I left to go home in the middle of a snowstorm. We had 3 inches on the ground and it was coming down heavily. Our town is in a budget crunch so roads weren't cleared and most areas not even sanded. Cars were sliding all over the road and I passed a 3 car pile-up. I was shaking so hard and when I called ahead and heard a voice from home I started to cry. It took over and hour plus to drive 30 miles. I got home shaking, hurting from tightly gripping the wheel, and with tears in my eyes I unloaded my work bag into my house but instead of grabbing chips, cookies and soda I grabbed a shovel and started in on the snow piles. An hour later I had stopped shaking, crying and feeling out of control and helpless. Plus, the driveway was cleaned and pretty good if I say so myself. I didn't eat and I felt better not so stiff in my back. So for today I am happy with this small victory and hope to see more in the future.