Is it Really About the Weight?
Saturday, February 01, 2014
Well, I had a 22 days streak. I was so proud and constantly wanting to increase it. Then I missed a day. I had classes from 9:30- 3:30 and then work for 4:00-9:00 then I can home and did homework and passed out before realizing I had missed my daily update.
The next morning I weighed in and was 2 pounds heavier than the day before. I seems the universe was punishing me for skipping my daily login. I SHOULD Have brushed it off and gotten back to logging in daily. I SHOULD have tracked my food from the day before and I SHOULD have tracked my food for that day and done some exercise. I should have, but I didn't. Instead I got angry that I've now been on SP tracking religiously for 22 days, doing 10+ mins of exercise everyday and really trying and I had only lost 0.2lbs. So instead I wallowed, and ate takeout for 3 days straight (multiple times a day). Which brings me to today.
Today I had breakfast at home, and then had morning snack, lunch, dinner, and evening snack at take out places. And I feel awful. In fact over the last 3 days I've felt awful and bloated. I've had less energy, been more stressed and easily irritated. I've cried more times than in the last month (over the stupidest things), I have an upset rumbly tummy and have been waking up constantly during the night. And I've felt depressed and discouraged.
These are all things that I used to feel every day. But when you feel them every day you don't notice them. You don't feel them. It's just part of who you are. To go so long without feeling them made me forget. And to go back to that made me realize that even though the scale isn't moving my health is changing, both physically and mentally, and isn't that what is most important?
Time to pick myself up and get back on track.