January is over. I spent the first two weeks of this year running an insane mental marathon. It was too much for me. So naturally, I ended the month in a state of regression. The weather was partially to blame. I didn't keep track of how many days my son's school was cancelled, but I'm guessing the number was around 7 (maybe more).
Not only was my routine disrupted, but I also couldn't get outside to walk off the stress. I live on a curvy farm road in Western North Carolina (in the mountains), and somehow the traffic by my house is non-stop. There are no sidewalks, and locals use my road as a cut-through to the main road. The closest safe place to walk is 18 minutes away. (Yes, I timed the drive). I tried indoor exercise a few times, but it's so hard to focus with Valen's dad being home during the day. And then if Valen does have school, I get him off the bus 20 minutes after his dad leaves for work.
Blah... Excuses... Plus depression. Oh, and family drama. (Which I've decided to completely avoid from now on. Promise!) And... What else?
I don't want to sit around and whine and cry and hate myself for not getting back on track as quickly as possible. I did have some success in January. I wrote several blogs, I cooked many healthy meals, and I did reach my 1,000 Fitness Minutes goal. I also worked through a lot of emotions, left over from a lifetime of abuse by my family. (Blogging helped with that).
I'm going to continue working on my Intrinsic Perspective blog on blogspot. (Or, I might move it to wordpress, or another site...) And I'll keep up with blogging here on SparkPeople. I want to improve my own sense of well-being. I still have demons to face. So many emotions to recognize. I'm ready to make peace with myself.
I'd like to commit to some February Goals, but I don't want to get overwhelmed this month. 1,000 Fitness Minutes is easy. (Especially once I can get outside to walk and go hiking). Healthy Cooking -- I can do that. But I'd also like to try a 28 Days of Yoga streak. And I want to focus on a sleep routine. The yoga should help me sleep better.
My body needs to learn other ways to cope with stress and a heightened sense of emotion. Overeating is an unhealthy solution that doesn't help me feel any happier. It might create a momentary rush of endorphins, but the sensation of feeling "good" doesn't last long. I have to find a way to rewire my brain. Once I do, I'll publish my findings and become a millionaire. So there ya go -- motivation! Ha!
Finally, my most important goal for February will be to Stay Positive. Maybe I'll start a Positivity Journal...
Here we go. 5 Goals:
28 Days of Yoga
1,000 Fitness Minutes
I will aim for at least 10 minutes of yoga every day in February. I'll maintain my 1,000 monthly fitness minutes. And I'll leave the last 3 goals open-ended. I will define them later, and add some measurable mini-goals, but the outline is good enough for now.
I'm going hiking today, and I'll start my yoga streak once Valen's dad goes to work. Tonight I'll write my first entry for my Positivity Journal. I'm ready for an awesome month!