Friday, January 31, 2014
Well yesterday didn't go as planned. Around 1 PM the cramps hit me harder than anything I've felt in months. I think it might be because my hormones and general state of mind has been out of wack lately but it felt like someone was punching me in my uterus. I was doubled over at my desk. About 3 PM I realized it was my 10 year anniversary. Husband surprised me with roses and champagne. We also went to get burgers and fries because that's literally the only place I can eat out now. I felt guilty while I was eating it. And after. And now.
I've been awake since 3:19 AM. I ran out of my sleeping pills because I've been so distracted lately and had to settle for some brand I've never used. Husband can't read and gave me only half a dose so that wore off and I was wide awake. Today at work I feel like the walking dead. My skin looks awful. I've been eating this crap for weeks and I feel like crap and I look like crap. Ugh.
At least my therapist called me back but now we're playing phone tag.
I am seriously hoping to get an appointment next week. I already know what she'll say first though. Stop drinking. So let's get the ball rolling with a completely sober February. I have listed out 28 different reasons to stay away from wine for each day and I'll write about the reason and why it matters to me.
On a different note, my hair appointment was pushed back 2 weeks to the 22nd and I've already gone 2 months since my last one. Pretty soon I'll look like this:
RIP Colonel Meow