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February


Friday, January 31, 2014

Well yesterday didn't go as planned. Around 1 PM the cramps hit me harder than anything I've felt in months. I think it might be because my hormones and general state of mind has been out of wack lately but it felt like someone was punching me in my uterus. I was doubled over at my desk. About 3 PM I realized it was my 10 year anniversary. Husband surprised me with roses and champagne. We also went to get burgers and fries because that's literally the only place I can eat out now. I felt guilty while I was eating it. And after. And now.

I've been awake since 3:19 AM. I ran out of my sleeping pills because I've been so distracted lately and had to settle for some brand I've never used. Husband can't read and gave me only half a dose so that wore off and I was wide awake. Today at work I feel like the walking dead. My skin looks awful. I've been eating this crap for weeks and I feel like crap and I look like crap. Ugh.

At least my therapist called me back but now we're playing phone tag. emoticon I am seriously hoping to get an appointment next week. I already know what she'll say first though. Stop drinking. So let's get the ball rolling with a completely sober February. I have listed out 28 different reasons to stay away from wine for each day and I'll write about the reason and why it matters to me.

On a different note, my hair appointment was pushed back 2 weeks to the 22nd and I've already gone 2 months since my last one. Pretty soon I'll look like this:


RIP Colonel Meow
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RAINEMARIE214 2/3/2014 1:32PM

    Aww Happy Anniversary. Roses and champagne was super sweet!!

I got my hair done this past weekend - first time in 6 months! But having to wear my hair in a bun everyday kind of takes away the urgency of getting my hair done...

Hope you have a good February!!

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FERRETGIRL28 1/31/2014 4:06PM

    A belated Happy Anniversary....I'm glad hubby gave you a nice surprise with the roses & champagne.

Sorry you are having trouble sleeping. I know how it goes, I take a sleeping pill every night or I would never sleep. Not sleeping does not help you feel good overall, so maybe that's contributing to your feeling down about other things.

Good for you for making your February goal avoiding alcohol. emoticon Also congrats on finally hearing from the therapist. I hope you get to see her soon, so you can get to feeling better :)

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OLIVIANIGHT 1/31/2014 2:52PM

    Hey giving up something February actually sounds like a really good idea. I mean it's a short month, which instantly makes it seem more manageable. I might just join you!

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KITRONA 1/31/2014 12:42PM

    Hope your day improves! Happy late anniversary!

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JES_VARNER 1/31/2014 12:27PM

    Sorry you're having such a rough day! I applaud your decision to do a dry February though! You can do it!

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