Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Well, as I mentioned in a previous blog, I'm trying to be more mindful about my behaviors after seeing Brene Brown's Ted Talks on vulnerability and shame. She discusses the three things people do to avoid vulnerability: numbing out, perfectionism, and joy foreboding. Thanks to the Spark tracker, I don't numb out with food anymore. Thanks to re-reading blogs and noticing patterns in my behavior, I've gotten a lot better about not demanding perfection all the time and being gentler with myself. So what do you suppose I noticed myself doing this morning? That's right, joy foreboding.
I weighed in and found that I'm down about 13 pounds total. Which is great! But somehow my thoughts turned to worrying that maybe I was losing muscle and not fat, or what if I'm losing too quickly (which I'm not), or what if it's just a fluke and I haven't really lost anything at all... WHAT IF?!
So instead of letting these thoughts run wild, I'm celebrating my success and enjoying the feeling of knowing that my hard work is paying off. I really can do this! We all can!