Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Since I have confessed that I am embarrassed to run in public I decided that this year I was going to get over it (and myself). I am to run the Sweetheat Run 2.15.14. I have decided to run something this summer not sure what yet but I want to run the Corn Dog Classic, the TD1, Tulsa Run and Route 66 HM. I will get over this.
We all have something to get over. I'm a runner that is what I do. There are so many people who struggle and perhaps me being self conscious in a pair of running tights or slider shorts is not any less a struggle than other people but I still need to get over it. I guess my son, Riley is always my reality check. He is T1D and 75 years ago there was no engineered insulin he would have died. I don't have to struggle with his calloused hands from sticking myself at least 4 times a day, everyday for the rest of my life. I don't have to worry about doing math in my head in counting carbs with my blood sugar high and making it hard to think and the list goes on and on for a 16 year old.
This first run of the year is for Riley. Cause I am proud the way steps up and he doesn't flinch at needles, has blood gases drawn in the hospital without even waking up, Proud sometimes when he has struggled through school when he feels really bad but still comes and lays next to me and wants to be hugged when he realizes he has be dealt a very big issue for a very young man.
I run alone in the Sweetheart Run but my sweetheart this year is Riley at home waiting for me.