Today is as good as any to start over.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Let's just say I'm scared.
I've been scared to even step on the scale or even log on to Spark in almost a year.
Yes, its ridiculous. How could someone be afraid to log onto a website or take a few steps onto a scale? Well, that was me all these months.
Today I did it, and saw that I had gained back all my weight..plus some. I figured this since Ramen Noodles and pizza became my main food groups, also add the fact that my "big girl" pants don't fit anymore.
Today has been somewhat good. I ate a healthy breakfast and took my pup Dexter on a walk. I'm thinking something is always better than nothing :) Good start to my hump day.
Member Comments About This Blog Post
The fact is, you're here.
That is a huge step.
Now, think about what you've done in the past that hasn't worked and do the opposite.
This journey is all about setting small goals, being kind to yourself, celebrating even the smallest of victories and forgiving yourself when you make "bad" choices.
I've been at this for years and still haven't reached goal, so I get it.
Something I'm trying differently this time is the Beck Diet Solution - it is all about a cognitive approach to weight loss, because until we change our relationship with food, we'll never be successful. You really have to stick to it and follow the tasks. But I can say that in the last 28 days, I've been able to pick myself up after a bad choice, move on, track my food, and even lose 2.1 pounds (I know it isn't much, but it's better than nothing). In the past, I wouldn't make it past a week or so before I stopped tracking or went on a major binge-a-thon.
Maybe give it a try?
Be kind to yourself. You are smart, beautiful and worth it.
Don't look at it as "starting over", because that implies failure. You are here to begin a journey that you are ready for. You'll take what comes, brush yourself off when you fall, forgive yourself when you make poor choices, and above all, remind yourself every day that every time you track your food, go for a walk, read a blog, write a blog and keep your head in the game, you are making progress.
Whether it takes you another 2 years to lose the weight, wouldn't you rather be there in 2 than not at all? I see you've been on SP since 2006. Me, too. It kills me that if I'd just stuck to it, even losing less than a pound a month, I'd be at my goal weight today. I don't want to be here in another 8 years wishing I'd stuck to it...
1124 days ago
Comment edited on: 1/29/2014 1:59:58 PM
Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.
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