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Four years

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

I can't believe it's been four years since my brother died. There is so much about that day that I will never forget. Then again, that day marks the day my life changed forever.

Willie was my big brother, my partner in crime, my mother's favorite, and the one person I never thought I'd have to live without. We shared a unique history and always counted on each other. Of course we fought, but we still loved each other.

My husband has many characteristics that remind me of my brother and I wish they could have met before his accident. I can't watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows without thinking of him because Daniel Radcliffe looks so much like him in it. In many ways I am reminded of him every day.

Many times I have said it should have been me. He was kinder and gentler than me. I was amazed at his funeral to see how many people were there. How many people he touched. I'm not social like he was and know there will never be as many people when it's my turn. He left a lasting impression.

Life goes on. I have to remind myself of this every day. I may not be the same person I was four years ago. I may never be whole again, but I can still make a difference. That's really all any of us can do.
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    1512 days ago
  • THOMS1
    emoticon So sorry for your loss! emoticon
    1513 days ago
    Such a nice tribute to your brother. I bet he would say many of the same things about you if he had the chance. emoticon
    1513 days ago
    I'm so very sorry for your loss!

    You have to stop knocking yourself down, though. I'm sure you have many wonderful qualities that many people love about you! You have to give yourself a break. We all are different and have different gifts and talents. We simply have to be the best people we can be.

    I'm sure your brother was a wonderful person, but you came from the same home. I'd bet money that YOU are a wonderful person, too! Give yourself a chance. We are not all social butterflies. (I certainly am not!) But YOU are the best YOU there is!

    1513 days ago
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