The devil's in the discipline
Monday, January 27, 2014
In the past, some people have said to me, "You're so disciplined!"
I took this to mean, "You make time to run." I never really thought I was disciplined, per se, because I was only doing what I wanted to do. If that meant I ran at 5am or in the snow, then so be it. On the contrary, I remember my parents telling me as a child, "Sometimes in life, you have to do things you don't want to do." I thought, that's the dumbest thing I've ever heard. Of course, I get their point now that I'm grown up -- but I say this to show I'm not really particularly disciplined.
At first, I was thinking I am only terribly undisciplined when it comes to eating delicious/comforting/handy foods. If I want it, I usually end up eating it. I do work out quite a bit, but it's because I like to, and when I don't feel like it, you better believe I find some way to stay on the couch. And now, I realize that the devil really preys on my lack of discipline. I recently stated to my hubby that I wasn't going to buy any new clothes until we move (to a different climate) in October. I have plenty of clothes right now, and we're trying to save some extra cash, and I will have to buy new stuff when we face the climate change. Plus, I don't really shop that much... maybe I pick up some things online or go to the mall for a precision-targeted purchase.
But don't you know, less than a week after my declaration, I am on a business trip and had some extra time when I drove past the outlet mall about which I always remark, "Someday I'll have some extra time and stop in there." Suddenly I'm walking out of Jockey with a new bra, new underwear, new pajamas and new camisole. Seriously? It's like the devil just wanted me to know for sure that I'm weak and undisciplined across the spectrum of my life, not just when it comes to food. Stinker.
So, I'm going to take most of it back. OK, not the cami -- because I have another just like it and always end up wearing it straight out of the hamper and hoping it doesn't smell. A second one is a good idea. But the rest: RETURN.
Lesson learned is that I need to work on discipline in my WHOLE life, not just on my dinner plate. "Sometimes in life, you have to do things you don't want to do."