Monday, January 27, 2014
I am very frustrated right , now !
The lawsuit for the legs that I did not initiate is now going to Trial . I just had a conversation with my attorney . I did express that although I will never be able to crack down nine minute mile again , or be able to jump rope ( which is so small minded to begin with ) walk without a cane etc. or other functions that I lost I am still grateful as to how far I have advanced and it could always have been worse, trying to FOCUS on the positive , right now -
I am only human and have feelings - every time I get in a good groove - I get kicked to the curb - this is Life - I know better than to cry in my Organic Sugar Free Tea - but still not my fault and cost me three years of my life already ! This is a trigger to me !!!!!
It will pass - in another five years , gosh I shutter to think !
I wish I could change one day of my Life that one second it took to change my life forever ! But I cannot ! And yes there are many more worse afflictions in Life - I just would like to be able to move on !!
I did however , find out that I can and will participate in the Tri's as planned as my physicians have given permission - I have nothing to hide from anyone . Life goes on ! I will progress with training as planned as soon as the Vortex Breaks and meditate to relieve the stress !
Thanks for your Support and allowing me to Vent so I do NOT regress and carry it around like A DEAD WEIGHT !
Why do I fell like a jerk when I need to vent ?
LiL Determined Racer -
I refuse to Change my Spark identity again , I am not hiding from the attorneys any more !!