Monday, January 27, 2014
I slipped up the past year and a half dealing with a lot of issues in my personal life and right when I needed SP the most, I disappeared from SP. I needed a community of HEALTHY support and rather than logging in here where I know that I could receive that; I turned to physical support of friends and family (which is usually a good idea for most, but not me.)
I just spent the last 4 hours reading through my old blogs and comments and one of my long time SP friends made a comment about how she knows that I struggle with my friends currently because they all live such incredibly unhealthy lives and anytime we hang out, it always has something to do with not just food- but JUNK food. Then add in the complete badgering of peer pressure... I give in all too often. Not because I'm weak, but because of my love affair of all things unhealthy. They all also know my love of drinking and my inability to stop once I get going. I'm that friend that you hear about doing utterly crazy things while tanked. It gets to the point with them that until I reach my goal and can sustain all things in moderation; I end up not hanging out with them. (This is why physical "support" is not the best for me and I should've turned to SP instead).
Being single now (the divorce is finalized) there is new trouble that I've run into. Dinner seems to always be what my dates want to do... I'd rather go on an adventure that has nothing to do with food or eating a meal. Turns out- that's an odd request.
At what point did a meal become a requirement of dating? Why is it "taboo" to not go out to eat? Why is there no creativity in dates?
Perhaps... I am just dating the wrong guys...
I have no idea where I am going with this blog.. I am just rambling at this point, but if it keeps me on here then ramble I shall!!