Sunday, January 26, 2014
Something came over me today. We moved into our place March 2013 and none of our pictures are up on the walls. That was until today. A big part of it was my husband making excuses of why he couldn't mount some shelves on the wall. 'they're concrete...it made a big hole....blah blah blah'. I've been bugging him forever to help me hang up our pictures. He says to me 'I like it better just plain'. I couldn't begin to tell you how much it pissed me off. I felt so upset, partly because of his laziness and partly because I felt like I was hopeless without him. I'm not sure what changed today, but I woke up and started hanging. Not everything is up, but at least the place looks more lived-in now!
I had an incident on Thursday with a couple guys. They started bullying me and the one guy was encouraging the other on to do so. I haven't felt like that since high school. I was SOOOO pissed off. I didn't react though. I kept it all in. One guy did apologize after, but it didn't really feel sincere. I spoke to a few people afterwards about it and they agreed that these 2 were out of line. I waited until I cooled off to really analyze the situation and it appears to be rooted in the 1 guy's insecurity. He sees me as a threat and doesn't want to be outdone by a female. I can't believe how immature some people are.
So I'm trying to be more independent and do more things for me. Enough living for someone else, I need to focus on what I want out of life. I'm not going to wait around for someone else to make things happen for me - if I did that nothing would ever get done. Although my husband's laziness frustrates me to no end, if there is something I really want, what's stopping me from doing it myself.