Sunday, January 26, 2014
Yesterday was a very emotional day for me, was unable to eat for most of the day. Cried until I made myself sick, several times. But I did finally eat and yes I made bad food choices, and I chose my McDonald's comfort food but you know what, it's ok. I don't give up anything, it's all about portion control and moderation.
My sweetheart of a boyfriend did all the packing, heavy lifting and loading the van and taking everything to storage, so I could go spend time with my daughter and granddaughter.
Reality sunk in pretty hard yesterday, I am moving 800+ miles from everyone and everything I know. It's a big change and I am scared as hell. I tried to hold it together the best I could, but I didn't do very well. So every time I was left alone I had my major meltdowns.
I know change is never easy, but not all change is bad. Anymore I embrace change. In 2009, I decided to change, I decided I couldn't continue living the life I was currently living. I was very overweight and very depressed. I turned to exercise and a healthier lifestyle and over the next four years, I beat depression, became more confident and independent and lost over 100 pounds. In 2012, I left my husband of 14 years because I just couldn't take the emotional and at times physical abuse. In 2013, I took a leap of faith and left my job to move in with my new boyfriend, and have not once regretted it. We've just celebrated one year together and we haven't even had a fight.
Sometimes you just have to ignore your head, all logic and just have to follow your heart, if it feels right, go for it.
We got everything packed and almost everything in storage that needs to go, have to take the wildlife mounts to storage, there just wasn't enough room for them. After those are dropped off only a few more things to load up then we will hit the road.
Everyone have a safe and happy Sunday.