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Last day as a Michigander

Sunday, January 26, 2014

Yesterday was a very emotional day for me, was unable to eat for most of the day. Cried until I made myself sick, several times. But I did finally eat and yes I made bad food choices, and I chose my McDonald's comfort food but you know what, it's ok. I don't give up anything, it's all about portion control and moderation.

My sweetheart of a boyfriend did all the packing, heavy lifting and loading the van and taking everything to storage, so I could go spend time with my daughter and granddaughter.

Reality sunk in pretty hard yesterday, I am moving 800+ miles from everyone and everything I know. It's a big change and I am scared as hell. I tried to hold it together the best I could, but I didn't do very well. So every time I was left alone I had my major meltdowns.

I know change is never easy, but not all change is bad. Anymore I embrace change. In 2009, I decided to change, I decided I couldn't continue living the life I was currently living. I was very overweight and very depressed. I turned to exercise and a healthier lifestyle and over the next four years, I beat depression, became more confident and independent and lost over 100 pounds. In 2012, I left my husband of 14 years because I just couldn't take the emotional and at times physical abuse. In 2013, I took a leap of faith and left my job to move in with my new boyfriend, and have not once regretted it. We've just celebrated one year together and we haven't even had a fight.

Sometimes you just have to ignore your head, all logic and just have to follow your heart, if it feels right, go for it.

We got everything packed and almost everything in storage that needs to go, have to take the wildlife mounts to storage, there just wasn't enough room for them. After those are dropped off only a few more things to load up then we will hit the road.

Everyone have a safe and happy Sunday.
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    Yes, it's a big move but remember the road goes both directions! I moved to NC form CA in 1999. One of the best things I ever did. Yes, it will be different in some ways but some things will actually be better. (Very little snow for one!) You'd be surprised how many times one person's move results in the rest of the family following behind like lemmings! The original mover likes it so much that the rest come along and love it as well. Don't be surprised if your daughter and grand-baby are right behind you! Come with an open mind and you'll soon be Y'all-ing like the rest of us!
    1418 days ago
    Welcome to North Carolina! I am near the city of Winston Salem and love our sparkies here. Wishing for you lots of success and happiness here in NC! emoticon
    1418 days ago
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    Welcome to NC! Let us know if you have any questions or if we can help in any way, I'm in Cary, not far from Raleigh. There's a lot to do around here!
    1418 days ago
    Oh!! You're moving here? I live in Raleigh, NC. I have been in NC since I was 13. You're going to love it! Just reading about your experiences here - well, we have a lot in common! Congrats on the courage to make all the wonderful changes you have - my mantra is "Leap, and the net will appear."
    1418 days ago
    I would so, so LOOOOOOOVE to make a post as a "last day as a New Jerseyan"........that state's rapidly becoming a complete and total *embarrassment* to America (don't ask - don't even get me *started*)!


    But seriously,'ve done so much in your life so far that is so crucial to your health and well-being.........yes, moving that distance can really give you pause (I've moved, but nowhere near as long of a distance), but keep in mind what you yourself stated in your blog - *not all change is bad*! (I frequently have to remind myself of that.........and for so many of us, change is quite daunting - for me, it pretty much depends on the reason for and circumstance surrounding the change.)

    Best wishes for a smooth, safe move and a wonderful new life to come!

    1418 days ago
    May your travel be smooth, the unpacking and organizing as well. And may you find new people, kindred spirits, to be your support team in your new North Carolina home! emoticon
    1418 days ago
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