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I know! I appear Awesome! But I am no different than you!

Saturday, January 25, 2014

I am going to try to blog a little more. I miss keeping a journal and since none of my friends or anyone I know is on the site I can be a little more candid than I would normally be.

This site refuses to allow me to swear. When I reread my last post, I felt like it was the cable version of a movie with a ton of cursing. How PG13 of you spark people? I swear so much I actually had to read my post 3 times in order to find the curse words. It's so nonchalant to me that my brain doesn't even flag them as bad words anymore. I have always blamed it on the fact I was Italian and from New Jersey. Also, my dad was a trucker... and it makes me sounds cool.

For the record, I am not new to Sparkpeople. I have been on this site for two years. I find it to be helpful but I lack real world motivation. I hate cooking meals for one person. When you cook for one and are on a diet, food goes bad much quicker because you don't eat as much. It's very annoying. I spend way more money and time on food when I am "on the wagon" but still feel twice as hungry. I also loathe exercising and it being so flippin' cold out makes me not want to do much of anything. I never want to do much of anything but I find that it is amplified by a million when it is this cold out!

Here is a list of reasons I want to be healthy:
1.) I really hate shopping for plus size clothes. They are beyond ugly.
2.) My family is riddled with genetic health problems. I am screwed if I don't loose weight.
3.) I'm an ER nurse. I don't want to have to need CPR while doing CPR. It's hard work!
4.) I hate telling people I had gastric bypass and broke it. I obviously gained back a lot.
5.) I want to get married and have kids. I can't do that when I spend so much time hating myself.
5.) I am a middle child Leo- Starved for attention! I love when people tell me I look good!
6.) I want to look at myself in the mirror and be proud, not completely repulsed.
7.) I want to look good for my brothers wedding- Maybe even have a date ;)
8.) I want people to take my medical advise. No one is going to listen to a fat, chain smoking, occasionally binge drinking, gambling nurse.
9.) I want to like how I look in photos and not want to cry until I am "untagged" from them.
10.) I want to go on a plane/roller coaster/camping chair/movie theater chair/ restaurant booth without being scared if I am going to fit. It's mortifying!
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  • GLC2009
    take heart, you can do it. lots of good advice is here. for me quitting sugar and artificial sweeteners and wheat has made a huge difference in my health. i too still need to lose weight, but, i have lost over 35 pds and kept it off and my health is so much better. and i believe it is from maintaining a low carb, wheat free diet and having the support of the people on this site.
    998 days ago
    998 days ago
    No one knows how to diet like a fat girl. You want to loose weight? Ask a fat chick. I can tell you all about the Gastric bypass, juicing, high protein, low fat, low carb, shakes, pills- Everything!! I can tell you the nutritional information in any food at any fast food restaurant. I can explain blood sugars, blood pressures, ulcers, heart attacks and high cholesterol. No one wants my advise. I have all the knowledge and no will-power. But Do as I say, not as I do- Riiight?? lol
    999 days ago
    8.) makes me giggle and wince at the same time.

    I still have nearly 30 pounds to go to be in the "normal" weight category, so most people I know personally wouldn't even dream of taking my advice on health and fitness, even if I know A LOT. It never occurs to them to be impressed that the 35 pounds I've lost have STAYED lost, most of them for two years or more.

    Post your "Meals for One" in the team forum and see what people come up with. I still cook for a small family, so I wouldn't have much productive input, but there are lots of singletons on the team who probably have wonderful ideas.


    It's a very active group, lots of support, lots of knowledge. (Low carb is great, but pretty counter-intuitive in our culture; it helps to have friendly encouragement.) Hope to see you there! Come by and introduce yourself!
    999 days ago
    Have faith! You can do anything you put your mind to! Good Luck on your journey!!

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    999 days ago
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