I so appreciate your comments.
I lived for years in Boston and then in New York City making my living as a professional artist. I have done quite a bit of writing - essays, articles, extensive correspondence and nature journals galore, but I never went out of my way to publish - I simply enjoy writing. I have some examples of my artwork in the photo section of my Spark Page. Please have a look. I would love to hear what you think. Much of my larger work does not translate well into the small format, so the examples I chose are a little misleading. My passion is social commentary - that is what I am interested in, but I work from life as well as imagination to tell my stories. Judging from the pieces in my Spark photos, one might see me as a portrait - botanical - landscape painter, but there's more to it than that.
Like you, my life has been punctuated with serious injuries. We have that in common. Mine involved brain and spinal cord compromises, and most recently a brain and hip injury when in 2001 I fell from a steep and rocky mountain trail. All of my injuries throughout my life seem to have involved thwacking my head against large rocks - go figure!
My father died of heart disease aggravated by smoking and alcoholism when he was 42. Weight, blood pressure and cholesterol are numbers I need to take very seriously.
You are a beautiful woman.
It is amazing how health issues get separated from vanity when one realizes that one's life is at stake. Of course one's life is always at stake. This is not a rehearsal - but a tumor or a dark spot on a scan can really make a body wake up and smell the coffee. Some wonderfully fortunate women seem to have been born with that knowledge without having to be thwacked on the head to understand it - can you imagine that?!!
I think that women make a terrible mistake when they diet with the main emotional goal, spoken or unspoken, of becoming more attractive. Such a mindset could be more accurately termed an emotional gaol, rather than a goal. (google gaol - it's worth it)
A woman whose life centers around being kind, adequately nourished, intellectually engaged, physically active, and at peace with herself and the universe will always be beautiful because those are things that make one fundamentally happy. If you do not take care of yourself, you cannot take care of anyone else, at least not for long. On the other hand, a perfect BMI won't keep emotional and/or physical pain from eroding one's beauty. True health is holistic.
I embrace you.
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